there are things i notice about myself and people around me. they give up on me way to easily even when i say or do the simplest shit, i know i’m the easier person to handle hell i can’t even handle myself and i have to live in this body everyday of my life. people assume shit when it’s not even true, i get it some words they sound like they mean something but sometimes they don’t, i don’t even remember the last time i was actually loved as a person rather then an object people can just cuss at whenever i do one wrong thing. there are things i notice about myself, i care too much even if it’s a good or bad thing i care if i did something wrong or i fucked things up or i just say the wrong things. i can be blunt and say the wrong things that people don’t like and i try and i try to explain it in a different way but it’s never gonna mean what i want it to mean but it’s whatever i’ll just be everyone’s punching bad. i’m very sensitive and i hate that i am because i take things so far up the ass that I don’t even want to feel like this, i don’t. i’m a bipolar asshole and nothing or no one will change my mind and i hate the way i act and the way i am but i can’t change even if i wanted to i just can’t because it’s hard for me to, i build up these walls so high but everyone knocks me down so they just keep breaking. i’m slowly starting to give up and just not give a shit anymore, i’m slowly starting to lose my mind and no one will even notice.