I would sit frozen at my car wheel and think about driving back home. What excuse could I come up with to not go in? Surely, no one would miss me if I just didn't turn up! I'd feel physically sick at the thought of having to walk in my office and face the day, all I wanted to do was hide. When can I book another holiday? How long till 5pm so I could get away from it all? As a Careers Advisor, they wanted me to "sell" the importance of getting good grades to get into a good university in order to get a good job. I was living a lie. So to save myself from myself I became a crap employee, I did the absolute minimum to get by and spent the rest of my time doing whatever I wanted to do. I'd watch hair tutorials, work on SuperFunkyMe, I'd dream about the kind of life I'd never need a vacation from. I'd read up on what @indefinitehoneymoon got up to on their latest travels in total awe and wonder how we could make it happen.
One day I just decided enough was enough, I couldn't take it anymore. I remember saying to @naatekor84 1 year from now I'll no longer be working this dead end job. I had no idea how but I knew I had to leave. My wellbeing depended on it.
You generally cannot see mental health problems and that's why they get ignored so often. Too many of us suffer in silence and avoid opening up about our struggles to the point that we begin to hurt ourselves. You are not alone. If you feel you're struggling please talk to someone. You are loved, you deserve to be happy and live a purpose filled life. Be well family #worldmentalhealthday #frofamilytravels