“I was supposed to come get her, but she called and said she would take the train instead. She promised and said she loved me. The next day I got a call saying she was gone. My sisters final note said she was sorry she hurt people. Said she never wanted to be a burden, and said she wished she spent more time with family and loved ones. There are so many unanswered questions. I decided to be part of helping making people know they are not alone. I used to be part of the beauty industry, and its an ugly place. I am now here to make sure everyone feels beautiful and seen.” - Cara
Cara is a 43 year old suicide loss and abuse survivor and spent 18 months in foster care. She was proud to state that she was currently in a reemerging phase of her life. Her grief and her process was still VERY fresh. She wore it all over her body, but with such grace. Cara was my first LA Face. I was nervous, and I was also so emotional because we had both lost a sibling who we had been trying to save and be there for. Its that case of an adult who you see slipping away but you can’t do anything about it. It renders you powerless. And then when they did take their lives, we were left holding that worry, that sadness, that what if I did more - baggage. Its heavy, so I tried to lift some of it from her during her shoot. I saw it was so heavy, and I remember that weight in the early days of this loss. Her heart was SO fragile and her sisters memory is still swirling around her. But her light was also so loving and bright. She had a path, she saw a way to make this sadness into something. I wish I had that light so early after my loss. THANK YOU for showing me this was possible Cara. THANK YOU for being a Face in this project and sharing your loss with us all. Welcome to the community 🖤 we are sorry what brought you here but happy you found us.