When you look out the bus window and see a visual representation of how your heart feels..
Anxiety really is a bitch sometimes!
Today I'm going to Broomfield to hand in all the necessary documents to become a Volunteer but when I sat down on the bus my heart started pounding and I instantly felt nauseous, my legs felt wobbly and then my head felt like it was floating, as I'm writing this now I'm in the middle of a full blown panic attack... on the bus... surrounded by strangers
I feel like I want to cry, it's the first time in this journey that I've wanted to get on the next bus and head straight home to the comfort of my living room and family, but I don't even know where it's come from! Or why I'm panicking, I've been so excited about the progression of this adventure that I forgot to take into account unexpected set backs like this one.
It's 11.31, I'm due to speak to the lady in charge of my department in 30 minutes so I'm going to sit down and attempt to compose myself, I've bought a bottle of water and I'm not going to pressure myself, I'll take the time I need to approach this effectively.
Send me positive vibes people!
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