Today was hard.
I felt so off center, my nerves felt as if they were being grated against sandpaper, and everything felt like a trigger, something to set me off, something to throw me completely off my course. I was anxious and frustrated and disappointed and upset and my day hasn’t stopped until right now. I just got home at 10 PM and I closed a backpack full of undone homework just a minute ago.
I prayed today through tears for God to reset my heart and renew my spirit. I needed a redo. I needed to find a sense of calm and I needed my feelings to shift right again. Sometimes I think we expect our prayers of desperation to be answered in great and mighty ways, but sometimes our whispered prayers are just a breath of victory.
I spent 5 minutes before I opened this little app to reluctantly share (if I may add... just being real) sitting in complete silence. I focused on the movement of my body, the breaths leaving and entering my body, the sounds I was distinctly hearing, and just being mindful of the beauty that is the present. Now, I drift off to sleep allowing peace to invade the frazzled corners of my heart. And I hope you do too.