Shopping haul! Got this big comfy sweatshirt, these two pairs of high waisted pants, a sweater, and a couple T-shirt’s (the other one is striped and not pictured). Happy with the clothes I really needed some new pants.
So this was a really hard shopping trip for me, I haven’t bought pants since prior to recovery. And I’m a couple sizes up. Trying to tell myself that’s okay, but the guilt is pretty high. I’m definitely having a hard time coping with that. And I also feel really guilty when people buy clothes to me, even though I know my Oma can afford it. She’s taken my sister and I school shopping every August since kindergarten, but every year my sister always ends up with more clothes than me because even as a kid I felt guilty that someone was spending so much money on me.
We went out to lunch and I managed to eat a good amount of my eggs and ham, and also some toast but no hash browns. But now we are gonna have pizza for dinner and I am absolutely panicking over that.
Anyway yeah just a little ramble of updates. I will be doing another post later based on the poll results on my story. -
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