Grief has a funny way of sneaking up on you. Today I woke up in a funk. But luckily I knew exactly why I was in a funk. This week will be my mom’s birthday and it’s the first time she won’t be here with us.
I know I’m the queen bee of hiding my feelings, tucking them away so I don’t have to confront them. For this whole Christmas season (even thanksgiving), I didn’t allow myself to think about my mom’s death and the giant hole at our family table. There’s only so much of that you can do before it bottles up and overflows. This morning it got the best of me and I cried most amount since my mom’s passing in August.
I’ve been trying so much harder to really feel everything, but old habits die hard. Sometimes it can be so much easier to pretend everything is fine and “focus on happiness” but it’s also okay to not be okay - especially during this special time of year.
So if you’re grieving the loss of a loved one, pet, or dealing with a break up (yes you need to grieve this!) - give yourself permission to feel everything. You’ll notice how much better you feel once you do that. And make sure to add in extra self-care, because you can’t pour from an empty cup. #dailysmilebykristin #grieving