I found this photo on Instagram and now I'm a little bit sad and shocked.. I was thinking about my eating habits, my meals and I realised that I forced myself to eat in a healthy and normal way, but my monster is still there. He's always with me sitting on my back, on my table. Everywhere.
Every time I buy something, he screams things like "I want to know how many calories has this food! I want to know how many protein, carbohydrates and fats does this have! I don't want you to be fat!" And I'm scared, and I always find myself checking what my monster tells me.
Days before I was about to eat a Cesar salad and my monster noticed the white bread inside my salad. He told me to take out the bread because it's bad for me, so I was eating my salad taking out the bread pieces. I'm trying to destroy this little monster but it's hard.. I have so many fear foods and if eat one of them, my monster screams that I failed. I will be fat.
Deep inside I know that this monster lies to me, I won't be fat if I eat once a month a slice of pizza or bread or whatever.. but my monster is always with me and he keeps trying to destroy me. But I won't give up so easily.
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