Have you ever wanted something so badly? .
Craved it, hoped for it, longed for it and wished with all your heart that it was real and that you could reach out and grab it with your fingers? .
A long time ago I accepted that I would be stuck forever wanting, waiting and hoping for something that would never come true. .
I wanted to be loved, and as a young girl I thought that love would come from physical perfection.
Only beautiful people deserve love.
The dream of my ‘perfect bikini body’ always seemed to be out of reach...always teasing me…forever mocking me… .
For so long, I thought that the ‘perfect butt’ would always be just a ridiculous, childish dream for me. .
When I had my first baby at 16, I thought for sure that I had missed out on achieving my dream bikini body and ditching my bad butt. I accepted it as a part of life. .
I would see my perfect friends in their brand new bikinis and sun kissed hair, having fun on the beach, while I was at home with my beautiful little boy. .
“You sacrifice your body for your baby” was something that I had heard so many times and I accepted that my days of beaches and bikinis were over before they ever began. .
Embarrassed, I would hide my body under mountains of clothing and my butt under long shorts. Nothing and no one could persuade me to hit the beach in a bikini or even venture out in anything but a pair of shorts and a T-shirt. .
Even the hottest pool parties, I just wouldn’t get in the water.
I never dreamt that 20 years later, by prioritizing health and wellness, I would inadvertently make my dream, my perfect body… my ideal butt… a reality. .
I wanted to be healthy for my kids. You know, the ones everyone told me I had sacrificed my body for… but in doing so, I get a body I never even imagined.
I always thought that “I’d love myself IF I had a killer body” but by loving myself no matter what I looked like, I got an even better body than I wanted. A healthy body.
The supplement industry tells us we need their powders because we “LACK” them. But the only supplement you need is self love.
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