20th July 2016.
Something can’t quite compute. I see you and I think you’re here. Then that tsunami of feeling falls flat on my chest again and I remember that you’re not anymore. I can not express how much we miss you. Life is difficult, strange, lonely, incomplete, confusing, nasty, void and silent without you. You are missed beyond understanding.
Two years without you Ian and it’s worse than it’s ever been. I wish you were here, just to reassure, to cuddle Freddie, to make everything better.
We are so lucky to have had you, my husband, Freddie’s Daddy... I will raise a glass or two for you today my darling. I love you EO.
#hope #love #family #heartbroken
And again my darling, have your final say... "I haven't had many down days because there's absolutely no point, if anybody is in a similar situation or has been with family or friends or themselves, I can honestly say, do not lie there in your hospital bed, do not feel sorry for yourself, you get up, you do as much as you can, you enjoy the time you have with your family and friends, because life is short, you're only here once, and please, please, enjoy it while you can, because it's much more fun. Here's to life." Ian Harper, 2016