Throwback! Here I am aged no more than 4, it was Christmas and this was my Christmas present... to say I loved that desk would be a massive understatement. I would be at it writing, drawing, role playing any time I could. And look! The chair is yellow! I was a total pink girl at that age (hence the pink paper) but my desk chair and desk was yellow just like the theme of Spoonie Village
Back then my family always thought I’d grow up and be some type of performer, even whilst drawing here I would sing and loved to put on show at my nans, climbing on a stool with a candlestick as a microphone (hilarious now as I hate being centre of attention, clearly I got it all out of my system at a young age) but I can remember even this young I loved to learn and create, I was always creating. Even here I was a bit of a sick kid with severe asthma, I’d stopped breathing twice on my poor mom at this point, but I never let it stop me enjoying myself.
For a while though I stopped doing what I enjoyed before this relapse, life got in the way and I never seemed to find time to create just for me, I was too busy providing opportunities for others to look inward and create. I now look at this photo with a different perspective these days, while I appreciate the fondness of childhood nostalgia, it’s also a reminder, never forget that child you once were and starve yourself of the happy things you used to lose yourself in.
Chronic illness can take a lot away from you, but never forget to connect with the child you were and do something you love just for you. It doesn’t need a reason or an excuse to be part of your life, absorb yourself in it as you once did, it’s there simply because it’s your happy place. Take a moment and think what brought you peace and happiness as a child that you could perhaps reconnect with?