Never thought I would say this, and probably should not throw it on social media so casually, but I am hoping someone out there may have experienced and bounced back from something similar... I am not actually sure at this point if I will ever sing in public or record again.
Singing has become emotionally painful and I definitely do not have the same joy for it as I once did. I have tried over the past 4-5 years, but I cannot get my love for it back.
I have no idea what happened. That part of me feels broken. Maybe it's too much pain associated with it and all the memories and frustration through the years? I literally just start to choke up and cry when I open my mouth to sing.
I have spoken to a therapist about this, friends, family. No advice is working.
Maybe it will pass? I don't even know how to deal with this. Never, ever expected to be in this position in my life. I have tried to not take singing as seriously as I did in the past, let go of my dreams for my career, just take it easy and play with it and try to have fun. I've tried everything I can think of and that has been suggested to me and my heart just sinks.
Has anyone else ever dealt with a situation like this? It is disturbing me greatly. I feel like a disappointment to myself and to my fans and it's a horrible feeling.