Sometime two years ago I was challenged with a massive wave of emotional trauma that I didn’t know how to deal with. The pain I felt in my heart was unbearable at the time so I asked @nanthonyphotography to help me. She said “we have to shoot”. I was at a record low, didn’t see myself as beautiful, and she convinced me to create. I envisioned the outfit and hair and makeup, and she knew exactly where to shoot. We pulled over on the side of the road on the way up to Cataract Falls. During a rainstorm with 80mph winds, we trekked into the mountains when I didn’t think my car would make it. You can’t tell in this photo but it was actually raining at the time. I could barely close my car door from the wind and we were screaming at each other because the storm was so intense it was hard to hear. This picture is only a by product of the feeling I felt that day. With the weather roaring over us, our bodies fighting through the terrain to take back the trauma we had been through, I finally felt alive again. I felt the breakthrough. This picture is by far my favorite because it reminds me of why I fell in love with creating images. I never felt “skinny” enough or “pretty” enough to model. It’s because I didn’t know how to see myself. I realized it’s not only what we see, but what we experience, and what we feel underneath everything we’ve been through, that truly matters. This day convinced me just how strong I am, and how I’d never let anyone (especially myself) tell me I couldn’t do what I love, ever again.