I’M SO AFRAID TO FAIL, I WON’T EVEN TRY.
These are words from @dido’s Life for Rent, the title track from her album of the same name. I gave that CD a good workout, and the song always intrigued me. I never understood what she meant with her “life for rent” imagery. 🏠
15 or so years later, swimming this morning, the words just popped into my head. I realised that in just one month, I had gone from fearing I couldn’t even swim two laps to today, swimming 40 🏊♀️ Holy 💩
A physio told me when I was 13 that due to my scoliosis, I would be a hunchback by the time I’m 30. 😫 It freaked me out, but not enough to take his advice and start swimming. Spoiler - I’m past the 30 mark and still not a hunchback. Phew. 😅
Every year, I’ve told myself I would do it. Just start. Every year, the anxiety of fucking it up and looking stupid overcame the desire to swim - even though I love being in the water. 💦
If we wait for the perfect moment to start, we will never move anywhere. The number of things I’ve wanted to do but then haven’t because “I’ll be shit at it” are plentiful. It’s ridiculous really, you just need to say to yourself “stop being stupid and get on with it”... or if tough love isn’t your thing, just start. ❤️ Because within a month, you might just surprise yourself. And it feels bloody good.
Go forth! 💥
📷 @golfarisa .