Me and James Sheffield Dewees aka @blujemz having the time of our lives at my 40th birthday. i liked you enough (i.e. very much) when we met at 16 but we got so much closer as time went on. best friends, dj buddies, dumb-movie goers, english humour fanatics, late night creepers, and finally just two people who loved and knew each other their whole adult lives and could deal each other heartfelt, on the nose advice in an instant. one of my favourite people in the whole universe, a mix of so many different things that shouldn’t go together. the past year had seen you so optimistic despite your diagnosis. i really did think you were going to be here a while longer, you seemed so strong. it still hasn’t sunk in and won’t for a while. but i feel extremely lucky to see you take your life back. to re-attack it with the zeal that you did. making music again, travelling the world, going to Knicks games. we had alot of plans for the coming months. i’m sure i won’t be able to stop thinking about you as I go through all of it. thank you for your magnificent light while you were here. we’ll never forget any of it. love you forever Mark
Finally getting to watch this bbc 2 classic albums series on back to black. Some recording stuff I didn’t even realize was filmed at the time. It’s emotional as fuck but seems worthwhile that they made it. I don’t know what else to say. words seem useless sometimes but never for her, she commanded them.