So in the meantime while I educate myself on the latest controversy, there are some things I want to clarify to everyone.
I am not a certified yoga instructor. I am only a practitioner for now 7 years. I have never done any yoga teacher training. Many of you know this but for people who have started following me recently I have to clarify so I do not mislead you.
That is the reason that my page is more art focused. I do not want to teach when I feel I am not fully credible. I am still learning, myself. I want to subtly enforce beginners/anyone for that matter to go to their local studio and learn from someone who is certified. Or from videos from someone who is credible. Whatever is most accessible to the practitioner.
I do plan to be certified one day but I am absolutely in no rush. The right time will come when I feel that I have a full enough understanding of yoga and its philosophy to teach others. I could teach asana no problem, but because that is not all yoga is, I did not rush myself into teacher training. It is hard enough to grasp a concept that is foreign from your upbringing.
I love to voice my thoughts and conflicts with the intention to inspire others who are going through similar battles. I am setting the foundation for myself to become the best instructor I can be. To not only teach alignment, but to teach philosophy.
I have been an artist my whole life. I started taking selfies when I was 12 years old before the concept even existed. I hope my page has not mislead people to believe otherwise.
My work is the way it is due to the bar I set for myself. It is not because of how I want to be perceived. I am an utter perfectionist when it comes to art and I have an endless passion to create something that will stop people in their tracks. And make them feel.
The message was NEVER that your photos had to look a certain way, that you had to wear certain clothing, or your body had to be a certain size to be able to practice yoga. I can say from the bottom of my heart that that was absolutely never our intention. If that is how we are being perceived, I believe the spectator needs a shift in their perspective. We see what we want. Choose wisely.
Thank you for letting me be your weather reporter for the evening referencing my stories if you’re confused haha.
It is so rare that we get clouds like this where I live so I tend to freak out when it happens. ♀️
Aside from that there is a lot going on right now as I’m sure some/most of you have seen or heard regarding Alo, Kino, and Dana.
I am still in the process of educating myself to my fullest understanding before I voice my opinion. Like @aubrymarie put it, an uneducated opinion means nothing.
So I kindly ask that you bare with me while I continue to digest this situation. It is hard to juggle everything with life and my beloved grandmother just had a stroke last week so right now I have priorities to address. In the end I want to seal the divide with love and remind everyone to be gentle. My heart is broken from what has happened as a result.
Jacket from @ypapparel
Leg warmers by @aloyoga
Photo by me
Reading your responses yesterday was both comforting yet disheartening simultaneously. It is comforting to know that we are not alone in this situation, but disheartening to know that the problem is so prevalent. With the #metoo movement that is flourishing across the globe, I strongly believe now is the time to bring awareness to narcissistic abuse.
Narcissism is so much more different than I would have imagined. When you hear narcissism you think of someone that is obsessed with themselves, or at least I thought that was the jist of it. But it is so much more complex than most may realize. Are they obsessed with themselves? In a way yes. But it is in such a way that they expect everyone and everything around them to submit to their hunger for control at any given second. It is in such a way that they can learn how to manipulate a situation in their favor instantaneously. It is in such a way that they are NEVER the ones at fault, but everyone else around them is. In a sense they think they are all-knowing, everyone around them is subpar, and that anyone who dissects their behavior is “crazy”. They gaslight others the second they think someone has got them all figured out. They want you to doubt your own perception of reality and make them your one and only person to rely on. I could go on and on. I’m assuming narcissism is probably one of the most under diagnosed mental illness out there due to their inability to look at their own actions. Absolutely no one can convince them that they are sick, and often times the more you try to explain them their behavior they will mirror your complaints and claim that’s what YOU are. What is frightening is how well a narcissist can fake charm. They meticulously disguise themselves throughout society and are way more common than we realize. Which is why awareness is so crucial right now to be able to detect the red flags and dodge the bullet early on.
For anyone that has experience narcissistic abuse(or just curious) I HIGHLY advise you look up ANGIE ATKINSON on YouTube. Her videos saved my life and enlightened me on what I was going through. She brought me so many answers. Im out of caption room so I’ll leave it at that
Sometimes being okay
So what do I mean by that...
It’s been just over a month since I broke up with my ex. We were together for two years, unfortunately.
I’m always one to stay somewhat silent as I’m actively experiencing something, then always come out later and explain. And while I’m not quite ready yet to come out with my story on what unfortunately turned out to be an abusive relationship(and not sure if I ever will), I can say that I’ve been more okay than I should be. But I have a right to talk about what I’ve been silently going through.
It only makes sense though when I really dig deep. For two years, dissociation was my only coping mechanism to literally be able to survive the relationship. It became my escape. When you’re in an emotionally/physically abusive relationship with a narcissistic sociopath, they make escaping impossible. I could not get out of the relationship as he set me in a fear-fulled trap. It was essentially false imprisonment.
I am normally one to sit with my emotions but the last month I’ve been constantly running away from them. I’m a cluster of paradoxical emotions as I am mostly RELIEVED and so happy to be finally FREE but deep down I am wounded beyond what I can comprehend. I’m distracting myself, constantly going out, constantly have to TV on, sometimes music on too at the same time. And my god can I say ignorance is bliss. Dissociation is not necessarily something to be proud of given it can manifest into worse issues down the line. I’ve been telling myself to get help but at this point I’m feeling out of touch with myself. But overall I’m just trying to be easy on myself. For my first time in two years I can go out without being humiliated in public, I can go out awithout getting interrogated afterwards, I can get dressed up without someone trying to tear my self confidence down, I can make my own decisions on how to spend my money, I can finally go out without being under the nose of an abuser. Without being monitored, controlled, and yelled at publicly. I’ve been dying for this day for so long. The time to heal will come. But for now I’m doing surprisingly okay. Just happy to have my life back.
“You know what makes me unhappy?
When brothers make babies
And leave a young mother to be a pappy
And since we all came from a woman
Got our name from a woman and our game from a woman
I wonder why we take from our women
Why we rape our women- do we hate our women?
I think it’s time to kill for our women
Time to heal our women, be real to our women
And if we don’t we’ll have a race of babies
That will hate the ladies that make the babies
And since a man can’t make one
He has no right to tell a woman where and when to create one
So will the real men get up?
I know your fed up, ladies, but keep ya head up.” One and only TUPAC The man who was beyond woke before the saying ever came to be.
It’s international women’s day and I have a somewhat heavy heart. But at the same time seeing all these courageous posts brings me great hope. KEEP FIGHTING LADIES Keep fighting for what we deserve!
We are the ones who give you life. And we live in a patriarchal society that paints men to be stronger than us. We can’t even show our own vessels without being turned into an object for pleasure. When we are- in fact- so much more beyond what words could ever express.
If a man were to EVER know what we go through. Pms(which is said to be stronger than a mans hormones will ever be....then men give us shit when we’re moody?!). Periods. Estrogen. Breast weight. Carrying a baby. Giving birth and baring the pain of a human ripping itself out of your own body. Having said baby wreak havoc on your nipples, and your psyche. Having an innate instinct to nurture that is not always reciprocated. If a man were to experience even just a sliver of what we do, they would stop degrading women in a heartbeat. And you know what, I bet they can barely even handle the thought of it.
We are the divine feminine. And anyone else who does not recognize that essence needs to remind themselves of why and how they are here in the first place.
There’s so much I want to say but I’m having some heavy brain fog today and my thoughts aren’t coming as clear. To the men who have and always will respect us, please continue to set the example. We appreciate you more than you know.
Outfit by @aloyoga
M I N D F U L M O V E M E N T
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Giving back and bringing yoga to the world, that’s what we’re all about. And the reason why I am always so damn proud every time I put this jacket on! Also the name of the very first book I was published in alongside the rest of the beautiful @aloyoga family! Photos by me
Wowowow okay nevermind I was wrong I thought the lighting wouldn’t look good but it turned out great today! A little late to post on a Sunday night but I couldn’t wait to post these haha. Hope everyone had a great weekend love you all xoxo
Photo by me
THE DOPEST OUTFIT EVER BY @ALOYOGA#newfavoritehandsdown
People will have misconceptions of you, and that’s okay.
You have to come to a point of confidence within yourself to know how to walk away with ease in your mind. The truth will always prevail.
In certain situations it may take years, and to be honest that has been kind of a reoccurring theme in my life!
It can and will seem unfair. For a very, very long time. But that is okay. The karmic laws of nature are unstoppable by any means. All you have to do is have faith.
Outfit by @aloyoga
Photo by me
While driving up to take photos yesterday, I spoke affirmations out loud to motivate myself. “Alright photo gods, help me get the best image I’ve yet to take. I am going to kill it. I’m going to get stunning images!” Because you know, why not.
At first the images were not coming out as I had envisioned. The outfit wasn’t working with the low light I had. The most useful tool you can have as an artist is knowing how to roll with the punches. It’s good to have expectations but you gotta know how to adapt to change. So I changed outfits, the lighting changed, and boom. I didn’t get as many sets in as I was planning to but it resulted in some of my best images to date! Thank you all so much for your responses to yesterday’s post! You’re all too kind. THE POWER OF THE MIND IS NOT A JOKE
Outfit by @aloyoga
I’ve honestly never relied on my hair to feel beautiful or confident. I always alllllways go for an updo. I am more used to wearing my hair up than I am down. But I’ve gotta be honest here that it’s been rewarding adding in another element to my images with my hair! Of course I don’t actually whip my hair when I’m actually practicing as that would be majorly distracting haha. I will probably never cut it short or go for a bob again. I always think that I will like how it looks on me but then I end up not liking it. Grateful to have my mane back, whether it’s tied up or flying everywhere in my face
Outfit by @aloyoga
Photo by me
I am unstoppable
I am tenacious
I am love
I am human
I am willing
I am able
I am curious
I am wise
I am boundless
I am capable
I am intuitive
I am perceptive
I am independent
I am eclectic
I am authentic
“The words that follow ‘I Am’, follow you.” - Unknown. This is how we reprogram ourselves.
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