This is me.
As much as I would love to say it has been a 2 year journey, reality is it’s been more like a 20 year weight battle. I’m going to call it a “battle” because that’s what it has been. It’s been a fight with mirror, a fight with the wardrobe, a fight with my friends, a fight with my family but mostly - a fight in my head every god dam day!
The pic on the left was taken June 15, 2016. The start of me saying “enough is enough”. “It’s time for a change”. “Its time to finally for once in my life start to change the way I look at myself in the mirror”. And I am so glad I made that choice. When people look at these pics they see a few kgs in change over a couple of years. But what I see is so much more.
I see a woman that hated herself, had zero self love or respect for what my body had been through and someone who thought “this was it” for me. Fast forward to the middle pic. This was taken just before Christmas. I wanted to start taking my before and after challenge pics in my bikini because all I’ve ever wanted is to look good in a bikini. I never actually stopped to think that it wasn’t actually about how I looked - but more about how I felt. Was also after our first family holiday - and that was the first time I actually spent time in a bikini and felt good.. in my whole life.
And now pic 3 - 21 weeks pregnant with baby #2. Gotta be honest - not feeling great. I threw out all my “big” clothes because I decided I didn’t need them anymore so I’m back living in trackies and jumpers (covered up) because that’s all I can squeeze into . But one thing I can say is for once in my life I know this feeling isn’t going to keep me down long. I know I WILL get back to that middle pic and I WILL get back into a bikini. Not because I want to look good but because I loved how I FELT. 29 years and it’s taken me this long to realise it’s not about looks. If you feel great and you can HONESTLY say you LOVE your body then I want to give you a massive hug right now because that right there are #seriousgoals.
And if you don’t - do whatever it takes to get there because YOU bloody well deserve it .