I haven’t been doing very well mentally, especially for the past week. I’m having a lot of trouble remembering things, even very simple things. I’m finding myself writing things down and taking pictures more and more, as I’m finding more and more blackouts in my memory.
It’s something I’ll have to discuss at my neurology appointment but I’m assuming is correlated with the increase in seizures and decrease in other cognitive functioning overall (balance, coordination, etc). I’m very tired, I’m very scared of the amount of difficulty I’m having even remembering conversations I had earlier that day or the day before. It’s affecting my relationships and making me miserable.
So for now, I’m coping by writing down everything I can in my phone, not deleting any text conversations, and trying to take more pictures so I have help remembering moments.
Thankful I have Kestrel for the mornings where I really don’t want to get out of bed, even if all that he can do is snuggle with me until I find the motivation to get up again. Thankful for how useful my wheelchair has been lately, and that I had access to that kind of healthcare so quickly.
Trying to stay thankful and grateful even though my mind and body feel like they’re constantly telling me to give up and give in.