"The truth hurts only once and a lie every time you remember it." I don't think truer words have ever been spoken. This 1 sentence so actually summarizes how agonising memories can be. I look back at my now broken relationship and accept the truth that he was never good enough for me as a matter of fact - based on his misbehaviour and lack of respect. Accepting the fact that he did not respect me is an easy truth.
But I cannot digest the lies. I look back at the red flags, the things he said or did that we so obviously a lie and cover up for all the bullshit he was pulling behind my back. I think of all the times my gut told me not to believe him and my heart insisted that I should find some truth in his words. I think of the times he lied to me and I smiled pretending to believe every word even though deep down I knew someday this man will break those promises and leave me stranded on a deserted island.
The lies, red flags, betrayal, broken promises don't let me breathe. Every time I remember even the smallest lie he said to me my heart stops and I ache to fill my lungs with air. Its like there is a huge weight of those lies and my soul is screaming in agony to be set free.
I wish manipulars, heartbreakers and gameplayers would realise the impact their lies have on the lives of their victims. I wish they would think before ruining someone's life. I wish they could see that its not fun or casual, it is a big deal. Emotional trauma runs much deeper than physical scars and the wounds can take a lifetime to heal.