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✨today’s food✨
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I’m not going to lie, today I had horrible body image. It became really difficult for me to eat and I have been very frustrated. It’s been difficult being thrown off my schedule and being unable to plan my meals. I didn’t allow this to ruin my day. I challenged myself and went to the pool today and wore a bikini! I also went to the mall today! Despite my struggles I did have a really fun day today and I am enjoying my vacation. I just wish I could get rid of my negative thoughts. ——-
#anawarrior #anarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #beatinged #beatinganorexia #choosingrecovery #conqueringanorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #fdoe #fulldayofeating #fightingforrecovery #foodforrecovery #healthyfood #healthyeating #mealplan #whatrecoverylookslike #breakfast #lunch #afternoonsnack #dinner.


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#fearfoodfriday holy shit this was scary. i seriously have not eaten pizza in so long. this pizza is from my fav pizza place though, so it was hard to pass up! also, my mom insisted on adding a loaf of bread with butter to the mix, which maximizes the challenge. my meal plan has been increased and I’m feeling kind of shit about myself, but i have something coming up that I should probably talk about... im going to PHP (partial hospitalization) soon. im scared. the program looks very inviting, but it’s just... a change... the eating disorder does NOT like change. well, if i can face pizza, i sure as hell can face any other food that comes my way, and i can deal with change. so can you ✨

#anorexia #edrecovery #anarecovery #weightgain #ana #fightingtobehealthy #recoverywarrior #whatieatinaday #trustyourbody #bloating #bulimia #eatingdisorder #foodisfuel #OCD #anorexianervosa #anorexiabeat #ED #anorexiarecovering #orthorexia #overexcercise #recoveryisworthit #recoverforlife #recoverymeal #anarecovery #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #foodismedicine #dinner #not1in5 #strongnotskinny


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2012-->2017-->Now
As a young teenager, I struggled with anorexia, overexercising, and self harm. I I got the treatment I needed, and was at a normal weight and had stopped cutting after about 2 years.
_______________________________________________________As time went on, last year in particular, I began to struggle with binge eating. I honestly still feel ashamed to say it 😔 But I also know that there are others out there who may feel the same, and so I want to be real with you. I was in a dark, dark place. As someone who battled anorexia who was also struggling with binge eating, I felt like I was being torn up inside. I longed to be skinny, but I longed for the comfort that food gave me. The compulsive thoughts were still there, but they had changed their form.
______________________________________________________ Last year some traumatic life events led me to reexamine myself. I realized that I couldnt live like that anymore. I was so tired of letting food control me, whether it was strictly avoiding it or overindulging in it.
_______________________________________________________ One of the best decisions I ever made was to focus on my health- physical AND mental. Fitness gave me something to focus my energy on, it gave me confidence, and it feels like it gave me a whole new purpose ✨✨Hopefully I will share more about my journey on here. I started this account for accountability, but this past year I've realized that I want to help people on their journeys 💕 You are strong, you are beautiful, you are fierce. 💕


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Those crisps was super strange and super good, never tasted crisps like that before, don’t know if it’s the chili or the lime of the combination of both + that it’s lentil crisps and not potato crisps 🤔. Anyway, nightsnack was on point tonight 👌👌 if I may say so myself 😅 #govegan #vegan #vegetarian #carbs #carbsarebae #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anafighter #anawho #fuckana #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edfamily #edfam #overexecise #overexercisingrecovery #overexercising #exercise #tca #spiseforstyrrelse.


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Dinner. I’m really struggling today. My urges to grab some wine and check out/hit pause on life are so strong tonight.
I can feel self harm urges creeping in and on top of that my urges to run and exercise have been sky high all day.
When will this end? I’m exhausted from fighting so hard every moment of every day. And guess what, I still grateful I get it sleep in my own bed tonight, wake up and keep working at recovery tomorrow.
I’ve come too far to turn back. I know what’s in the past and I don’t like it. So I’ll blindly follow my teams treatment plan for me and we’ll see what happens. 👏

#eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #selflove #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #fearfood #prorecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #edfighter #selfharm #depression #anxiety #addiction #selfcare #bodypositivity #recoverywarriors #recoverywarrior #antidiet #mentalhealth #addiction #sober #mentalhealthawareness


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Birthday dinner followed by birthday ice cream

Today didn’t get much better. At dinner my family like ignored me, talked more about my cousin than me or to me. Then my grandma made a comment about my smile during pictures and I automatically felt like shit. Can’t wait for this day to end

#anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #ana #anawarrior #anarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #ed #edrecovery #edawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #prorecovery #endthestigma #foodisfuel #nourishtoflourish #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit


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Vocês não tem ideia de como essa refeição estava maravilhosa!! 😍
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Eu adoro consumir uma maior quantia de carboidrato quando tenho treino, hoje fiz 10 minutos de hiit e treinei perninhas. 😅🏋🏼‍♀️
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(Carne bovina 🍖, pepino 🥒, repolho, batata-doce laranja 🍠, legumes variados 🥕e feijão carioca 🥙)
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#dietaflexivel #fitness #fitlife #vidasaudavel #foco #diarioalimentar #alimentacaosaudavel #treinoedieta #desafiosaudavelmente #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #iloveeating #fitnessmotivation #fitnessgirl #fitnesslife #comidasaudavel #corpoementesa #vemquetem #lifestyle #iogurte #vigor #vivorgregozero #iogurtezero #granola #iogurtecomgranola #comidadeverdade #40paramelhor #desafioseesforçaquecresce #seesforçaquecresce


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Snacking on a lot of strawberries❣️😍
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Honestly I can’t live without fruits🤤❤️ Who also loves fruits?😋
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#anorexia #ed #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anafighter #edfighter #strongnotskinny #gainingweight #followingmealplan #snacking #strawberries #yum #ilovefruits


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Nothing better than ending a day with hot chocolate🍫and nuts🥜
It's such a great combo 👍🔥Btw, I didn't stir the hot chocolate yet when I took this. That's why it looks powdery and weird😂🙄But whatever, I'm posting this anyways.
#eatittobeatit #edrecover #anarecover #anafighter #anawarrior #anarecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfighters #edfighting #anorexiasucks #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafight #anorexiafighting #recoverywin #recoveryfood #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #yummyfood


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at least I've added a few more foods to my life during this trip!!!
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#rawrecovery
#nourishnotpunish
#laughteristhebestmedicine


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Chicken with vegetables and peanut for dinner and a watermelon juice!! Couldn’t ate all of it
Frango xadrez e suco de melancia :)


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lunch was this and a glass of real orange juice, the day started off shit but i’m feeling better now


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21:00 p.m.
#cena: té con sabor a manzana y canela y dos galletas de arroz con mermelada de mora light
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Antes de esto tuve una conversación con mi mamá y realmente quiero salir luego de todo esto, estoy tan cansada 😔 así que la otra semana veré a una nutrióloga y le pediré un plan alimenticio estricto, hasta entonces voy a tratar de hacer lo mejor que pueda por mi cuenta también


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More lasagna for dinner tonight! Haha we finally finished it and we had some carrots with hummus too and then later tonight we had more cake and ice cream. I ended up crying after the cake and ice cream bc it was sooo much but my aunt wanted me to finish up everything that was left so she could throw away the containers 😫 but I survived and I will continue that until the day I don’t! •
















#recovery #ed #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulima #bulimiarecovery #ana #mia #bed #food #foodblog #dinner #lunch #breakfast #anarecovery #miarecovery #diet #ednos #weight #weightloss #weightgain #strongnotskinny #eat #eatfood #anorexic #recoveryisworthit #anarecovery #iamnotmydisorder


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17:00 p.m.
#almuerzo: arroz con brócoli, palmitos y una rebanada de quesillo


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Today I went to the movies with my two friends to see incredibles 2. It was so freaking amazing! TW:/// And I had an unknown amount of calories of popcorn because my friend and I split a large (more than half was still left by the end though) and I got an icee !! I shut ED out so I could enjoy myself. He only started creeping in towards the end of the movie. AND for dinner tonight one of my fear foods was given to me for the first time in a while and I smashed that too! There were tears but I still completed it !!


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Today I had a sandwich with cheese, turkey, and pepperoni, and some cheese and crackers for lunch! I also had a pear, but I was too full to finish so the second pic was what was left. •












#recovery #ed #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulima #bulimiarecovery #ana #mia #bed #food #foodblog #dinner #lunch #breakfast #anarecovery #miarecovery #diet #ednos #weight #weightloss #weightgain #strongnotskinny #eat #eatfood #anorexic #recoveryisworthit #anarecovery #iamnotmydisorder


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Today's dinner was so random😂🙄The first picture looks like a toddler's plate and it was such a dumb idea👀Yes, it is supposed to be a bunny🐰Well, at least it tasted good🤷‍♀️
The second picture was also random: Some veggies mixed it with garbanzo beans and mozzarella🧀It was simple and took no effort at all🙏✅
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Tomorrow I have therapy💭I am actually pretty excited for it☺️Hope you all have a lovely day💕
#eatittobeatit #edrecover #anarecover #anafighter #anarecovery #anarecovering #anorexiafight #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasucks #anorexiawarrior #anorexiarecover #edwarrior #edrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryfood #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #anorexiasurvivor


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I’ve been really feeling myself lately 💁🏻‍♀️💃🏻 had a tough reality check in terms of my strength this week, and I’ve got a lot of rebuilding to do. But it reminded me that I want this and I’m hungry for it. And is putting me back into a place where I am actively pursuing eating. I have an awful tendency to under-eat, but that won’t get me to my goals. So the next 6 weeks are all about food and strength. Time to put the work in 😈💪🏻
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#alwaysgrowing #bemore #bodyconfidence #confidence #chickswholift #damnshethick #damnshefine #dontquitonyourself #eatmore #fempowerment #haes #growth #healthateverysize #liftbig #powerlifter #pcospowerlifter #pcos #dietculturedropout #fuckyourdiet #honoryourbody #thicc #bodydysmorphia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #neversatisified


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Here are a few pics of me living my life in recovery ◡̈ Hi hi my loves!!! I know it has been a while since I checked in w/ you guys, but things have just gotten so crazy. I’ve thought a lot regarding what to do with this account now that I am deep within my eating disorder recovery. I feel as if I don’t really know what to say anymore to this audience, because while there are certainly bad days regarding the eating disorder (it never really goes away totally), I feel that I am far enough in my recovery to begin defining myself by more than just my struggles. I’m going to put a poll up on my story asking you guys whether or not I should merge my two accounts (personal/normal and this one) where you guys can get all my pics in one place OR if I should transition this recovery account into something different and more broad as I continue my metamorphosis. My recovery from #anorexianervosa and #orthorexianervosa couldn’t have happened with out each and every one of you, and I often found your support the motivation I needed to tell the eating disorder to get out of my life. I love you all SO much. Stay strong, resist the demons you’re fighting, and believe that you have a self-evident worth deep within your soul. #freedom #orthorexia #beatana #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #disorderedeating #antidiet #holistichealth #vegetarian #plantbased #vegan #intuitiveeating #vegetarian #health #healthy #mentalhealth #selfcompassion #bodypositive #ocd #ocdrecovery #obsessivecompulsive #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #depression #depressionrecovery #christianity #jesus


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12:00 p.m.
#snack: manzana verde
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Hoy tampoco desayuné, iba a tomar el ensure pero me frusté y molesté así que simplemente no lo hice. Odio estooo:( mañana NO me salto el desayuno por nada del mundo, sin importar mi humor


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Please sign petition to support this cause. End family separation. Also tag people who can sign too. 👊🏽👊🏽👊🏽 Link in bio of: @undocumedia Thanks to all the organizers who continue to do this work despite being busy and burning out. 🙌🏽


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Am I the only one who can’t stop listening to Sober by Demi Lovato?? It’s so beautiful ❤️ If it’s possible to love her and respect her any more than I already do, then I do 😌
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Dinner earlier 🍽️
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I remember when I first started treatment for my eating disorder I told my therapist that I wish I could just do the emotional side of recovery and not the food side. As I didn’t want anything to do with food then.
Now, I’m finding myself wishing I could just do the food side of recovery and not the emotional side. As now I don’t want anything to do with my emotions.
I’ve kept them locked away in this room for so so long-over 10 years-that I am terrified to unlock the door. I don’t think I’ve ever really let them out, even when I thought I was.
I would say “I feel worthless.” But it was almost as if I was a scientist analyzing myself. Even when I’ve cried in treatment, I’ve always removed myself as much as I could from my emotions. And the longer I kept them locked away, the harder and scarier it became to unlock them. To let them out.
But I have to. If I am ever going to truly recover. I have to.
I just wish I knew how to. I wish I was ready to. I wish I could stop myself from bottling all my emotions up. I wish I wasn’t scared to drown in them.


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A real munchies #nightsnack after a evening and night full of fun (🍁✌️) is Norwegian strawberries which are probs the best of the world, I swear, cherry tomatoes cucumber and pickles, @alpro blueberry Go On protein soy yoghurt, cola pastilles, roasted and salted sea weed crisps, chili and lime lentil crisps, half a packet of @fabulousfreefromfactory crunchee bites and a vegan peanut butter and chocolate @gardenoflife bar 👌😋. Hope y’all had a great Friday ! 💕😍 #govegan #vegan #vegetarian #carbs #carbsarebae #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anafighter #anawho #fuckana #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edfamily #edfam #overexecise #overexercisingrecovery #overexercising #exercise #tca #spiseforstyrrelse.


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i used to write myself love notes on fb
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#rawrecovery
#selfloveisthebestlove
#spreadlovenothate


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Breakfast:
Banana, PB, granola tortilla thing & tea with honey
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Snack:
Green tea latte & a banana
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Lunch:
Quesadilla & soy milk ~
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Toast, PB, & dark chocolate ~
Dinner:
Shrimp, veggie dumplings, & string beans ~
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Granola bar, banana, PB & chocolate, tea & honey
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Side Notes:
I got a bunch of flowers for my graduation so I might as well make the most of them lol
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#eatingdisorder #anorexia #recovery #recovering #ed #fearfood #disorder #ana #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #food #eating #breakfast #lunch #dinner #delicious #health #healthyrecovery #healthy #foodie


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I wish I still had my place mat that we used at meals on res and PHP. This quote was on there and I just felt that mine really did help me sometimes and it was also aesthetically pleasing to me. Unfortunately, the week before I discharged, pipes bursted in the kitchen area and all of the patients’ place mats on PHP got ruined 😭 even a picture of it would have been okay


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Good morning! ☀️☀️ spend more of your time with the people you love! 😊😊 Happy weekend. 🐇🐰


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Turkey burger, pineapple, green beans
#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #healthyfood


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I love this photo of me, because I look happy and not only that - in that moment I remember BEING happy too! But when those happy moments passed, I also remember hating my body and thinking that I was wayyy overweight... but now? I look back and realise how lucky I was, and still am. I spend so much time loathing my body, and yet it's my body that has allowed me to do so many things in my short 18 years. My legs? They took me skiing, horse riding and roller skating. My arms? They helped me to write, paint and hug the ones I love. My stomach? It let me digest all of the nutrients I put into my body so I had the energy to live my life. And my chubby cheeks? Well, they're part of my face - and a cute part at that! It's so sad that society tells us to change everything about our bodies when all that really matters it that our bodies serve as a strong, healthy vessel to live out our happy lives in. When I was sick I wouldn't have been hiking up mountains or going on holidays... my health is what has given me this freedom and joy, NOT Anorexia!

It took me a long time to see this and sometimes I still don't. But I hope everyone can see it soon, because your body is most beautiful when it is healthy and thriving - not as a skeleton. YOU are beautiful. YOUR body is beautiful. Treat it that way. ❤️ Stay strong everyone 💕💕
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#anorexianervosarecovery #fuckana #recovery #recoverywin #recoveryforlife #recoveryjourney #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #edrecovery #edfighter #edsurvivor #iamworthit #selflove #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eattolive #learningtolovemyself #learningtoeat #healthishappiness #healthiswealth #eattobeatit #inspiration #bodypositive #lovemybody #loveyourself #recovered


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BANANA PUMPKIN ENERGY BITES
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Just looking for quick little snacks today and working with some recipes and THIS IS SO GOOD! I wanted something quick and easy and healthy and highly recommend this! This was my first time making this but I think you should definitely try this out!
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DEETS -> 1 cup of oats, a handful of chocolate chips, a scoop of natural PB, 1 mashed banana, pumpkin pie spice and cinnamon 😊
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TAG ME IN THEM IF YOU MAKE THEM AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK ✨
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#recipes #healthyrecipes #healthysnack #foodie #foodphotography #energybites #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #edawareness #eatingdisorderawareness #realrecovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #anawarrior #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery


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😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 help me pwease💕💕💕 should I even count my calories and add in all the calories I burned? Should I have my hubby weigh me?😥😥😔😓😭😭😢 #edcommunity #edrecovery #recoveringeatingdisorders #anorexiarecovery #ladlebyladle #edstruggles #edhelp #edstruggles #relapse #anorexiarelapse @stefmarie.recovers @ladlebyladle #fearfoodchallenge #fearfoodfriday


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Last Night vs Tonight
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Last night I was so full of energy and excitement that I could barely contain myself. Tristan and I had had an incredible day of adventures and were eager about his first college tour. We'd found a Walmart near our hotel and the freezer in the mini-fridge actually worked (unlike in NYC) and I'd been able to eat a pint of Halo Top on the first 2 nights of our trip. Oh the comforts of home!
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Tonight I am so exhausted I can barely see straight. We had an amazing college visit. I'll make a post about it later. But right now I'm in severe pain. I realized on the drive to Indiana that I'd injured my back when I fell MUCH more than I'd originally thought. The entire first week after it happened, I stayed laying on the couch because it hurt so bad. The only exception was going to the farm a few times to tend my garden. I assumed I'd be ok by now. It's actually worse. My tailbone is bruised. It hurts to sit. It hurts to lay on one side for more than 10 minutes so I'm constantly flipping. If I sit more than 5 minutes, my legs get tingly and then numb with occasional shooting pains. Driving is difficult. I've been trying to hide it from Tristan because a) I don't want him to know how bad I'm hurting and b) I don't want him to be scared riding with me. But today during the nearly 7 hour college tour, most of which we were seated, he could tell I was in agony. Luckily the beds in this cheap (and wonderfully comfortable and clean!) motel are much firmer than in the first hotel, so my back can be supported and I may get sleep. I slept the first night from sheer exhaustion, but not much last night. Also, it's been so long that I've slept deeply enough to dream that I'd forgotten how much I scream, talk nonsense, and laugh in my sleep. It woke Tristan (as well as myself!) the first night and I was incredibly embarrassed! Now I have yet another reason to believe I'll never have a boyfriend...no one wants to hear "shut the f*ck up idiot" followed by maniacal laughter. Tristan wanted to know what that dream was about and honestly, I couldn't remember.🤔😒😏😉🤣
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#rawrecovery
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“True friendship takes us by the hand and reminds us we are not alone in the journey” 🍃


RANDOM QUESTION: what books do you guys recommend? My fav genres are fiction, fantasy/syfi or mystery, and even some autobiography’s (bonus points if the author has a mental illness). Recently I’ve loved all the books so far by Ellen Hopkins, and I finished a book called Truly Devious which is a mystery and almost Harry Potter-ish without the magic. One of my favorite autobiographies is called Life Inside and that’s by Mindy Lewis and I’m currently reading The Class Castle which is also amazing! So ya those are some of my recommendations so hmu and give me some of yours! Thank you xx
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#anorexia#anorexiarecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#edwarrior#edrecovery#ana#anarecovery#motivation#prorecovery#edfighter#vegan#veganrecovery#plantbased#struggle#mentalhealth#anorexiafighter#impatient#friendshipbracelet#weightgain#weightrestoration#inpatient#inpatientrecovery#crafty#creativity#neda#nedabracelet


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Just realized I've had a shit ton of pb today ugh. Sometimes I think TW "no wonder I look so huge, I eat a shit ton of stuff" I hate this. I want to win this fight I truly do but oh my lord I'm so fucking EXHAUSTED 😥😥 * * * * * * *Calories: 200 #ana #anasucks #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edsucks #anorexia #anorexiasucks #anorexiarecovery #beated #beatana #beatanorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryishard #chooserecovery #realrecovery  #learningtolive #edwarrior #peanutbuttercups #peanutbutter #chocolatepeanutbutter #chocolate #afternoonsnack #snack


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Lunch on the way to therapy was a chips and hummus pack and noosa vanilla yogurt with peanut butter ❤️❤️ therapy was alright I guess, she was pleased with my project I did and we pretty much just talked.* * * * * * *calories: 600 #ana #anasucks #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edsucks #anorexia #anorexiasucks #anorexiarecovery #beated #beatana #beatanorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryishard #chooserecovery #realrecovery  #learningtolive #edwarrior #chipsandhummus #noosayogurt #peanutbutter #lunch


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This post could be very triggering don’t swipe or read ahead if this concerns you.
These are the reasons I want to recover I’m tired, tired of fighting a battle everyday in my head one I’m not winning, tired of being cold, tired of my hair falling out, tired of feeling weak, tired of scaring my friends away, tired of this hospital, tired of constantly loosing weight, tired of having doctors constantly telling me what to do, tired of not being able to do the sports I love, tired of ruining my families lives but most importantly I’m tired of fearing food and I want to be me again.
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #anarecovery #TW #helpme #recoveryisworthit


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Breakfast this morning was granola with almond milk and cream and a noosa pumpkin yogurt (which I'll be getting more of cause yum @noosayoghurt ) really did not want to eat, I started the day with really bad body image and anxiety 😞😞* * * * * * * calories: 830 #ana #anasucks #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edsucks #anorexia #anorexiasucks #anorexiarecovery #beatana #beatanorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryishard #chooserecovery #realrecovery  #learningtolive #edwarrior #badbodyimage #granola #cream #almondmilk #noosayogurt #noosa #yogurt #pumpkin #breakfast


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Why do the smallest things make me want to cry? Literally I have a cat and he’s an outside cat and he is very sweet but very territorial, and he just attacked this young cat and it made me want to cry. What the heck is wrong with me??? Why do plants and animals make me cry?
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#ibfapp ibfneeded #ibfsearching #deepthoughts #ana #anorexiarecovery #bingeeating #bingeeatingrecovery #anxiety #anxietydisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #bodydysphoria #needsomebodytotalkto


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I used to have this vision of someday being free from anxiety. All the pressures of my life would fall away, and I would remain, calm, cool, and collected.
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When I first realized that there would ALWAYS be something to stress over, no matter how “together” I got or how hard I worked, I was devastated as this promise I’d made to myself turned out to be a lie. This dream I’d held close and looked forward to for years was a figment of my imagination.
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Through this, though, I found a new freedom. A freedom of knowing that while there will always be outside forces stressing me out, I can cultivate my own peaceful inner garden. I can learn how to manage my anxiety, avoid stressful situations, reach out for help and fall back on helpful habits. I can learn to live with my anxiety instead of be ruled by it.
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There is no magical place you’ll be transported to after so many years of therapy or so many tablets of Xanax. You will still be here, on this imperfect world, facing new stressors every day. But what also comes with it are the purple sunsets, the dinner with loved ones, the cuddles from a cute cat. Amongst all this anxiety, there is goodness, and just as stress will never go away, that goodness will never go away, either. It will be there, waiting for you to remember it, waiting for you to embrace it.


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Stretch past your comfort zone, reach your potential...and start paddling! 🏄🏻‍♀️🏄🏻‍♀️🏄🏻‍♀️🏄🏻‍♀️🏄🏻‍♀️🏄🏻‍♀️
Girls on Boards summer nights include some instruction, some splashes and lots of smiles. ~
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#girlsonboards #girlboss #girlpower #motivation #strongwomen #sup #bethechangeyouwanttosee #bethechange #girlswhochangetheworld #sup #paddleboarding #paddlegirls #bodypositive #bodylove #confidence #stronggirls
#loveyourself #bethechange #anorexiarecovery #inspiration #getoutside


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A year ago, I was deep into a relapse and would only wear black and cover myself up.

I was a shell of a person, and it hurts me to know how pained I was. It breaks my heart knowing the hours I spent in bed wishing I was anything but alive😞

Now? I’d be completely lying if I said I was happy with the photo. I still massively struggle with my being in a bigger body and still struggle massively with body dysmorphia. But I’m still going to challenge these thoughts - because I’m fine. I’m not put on this planet to be visually pleasing to others. I’m a person that’s kind, funny, smart and really fucking strong. I’ve gone through hell and back, and here I am still standing.💪🏻

I’m able to go on adventures, eat (mainly) what I want (still working on that), and laugh until my cheeks and tummy hurt.

I’m on holiday at the moment having a wonderful time with my pal, and instead of posting the photos I’m most comfortable with, here’s me in all my glory. Visible cellulite, a tummy, spots, pale af, frizzy hair and generally a bigger person.

But I’m being a bigger person, I also am able to smile now - rather than the pained grimace I used to sport.

Keep working towards recovery lady bugs, because you deserve to live through adventures that leave you crying from laughter💜

(I got sunburned after this lol🦐)


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Dinner tonight is not that photogenic as I had to eat in the car. My family and I are traveling right now to the island so we stopped at McDonald’s. I got some hotcakes and a fruit and yogurt parfait. Fast food is scary for me, as I’m sure it is for many, but I enjoyed this. Today I spent a wonderful last day with my boyfriend and have been driving and watching movies with my family. A great day indeed! I hope you all have a lovely night ❤️ #recoverywin#recoveryisworthit#beatana#anorexia#edfam#edrecovery#anorexiarecovery#edcommunity#edsurvivor#eattolive#eattolove#recoverywin#happypoints#eattogrow#eattobeatit#anorexianervosarecovery#anorexiawarrior #anorexiaarmy#livingblissf


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I actually put cheese on mine this time. 😂 Dinner was half a Blaze pizza with my friend. My half was the one with all the veggie foods on it, plus feta cheese. 😍😋🍕
I was sooo hungry and this was so freaking good omg.
#recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible


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A #fdoe from yesterday and the update you all haven’t been waiting for.
I really feel as if I’m entering a new stage in my recovery, both from restriction and from compulsive/binge eating. I was fairly stagnant for months and months, but now I’m doing so much on both fronts and while it’s not perfect, I’m making progress. I’ve really thrown myself into it, using all the resources I can get in a small town. Things are looking ⬆️ #edrecovery #recoverywin #bingeeatingrecovery #anorexiarecovery #weightrestoration #emotionaleating #recovery


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Lunch - home editon!
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For lunch today at home I am having a chicken, cheese and salad grilled chabata sandwich with a mini fruit salad
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Today so far has been super fun! I went grocery shopping and i went for a walk! So i have done quite a bit more walking then what i am suppose to do but I'll just eat more!
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#anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #recovery #ana #ed #edrecovery #ortherexia #ortherexiarecovery #bulimia #anxiety #food #loveyourself #strong


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Saturday blooms ☺️


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😌 Big breakfast for ENERGY 😎 Today will be a day filled with activities too as well so i’m making sure to fuel myself enough!! Had a coffee + cheesy omelette and mushrooms, some salad and persimmon. Then had a classic pbj toast because I wanted peanut butter and banana nut there wasn’t banana’s 😅 Hope everyone has an amazing day 😘💗#fitness #bulking #fitnessgirl #bulkingup #balanced #balance #balancednotclean #cleaneating #healthyeating #healthyfood #healthylifestyle #healthyliving #nutritious #nutritiousfood #recovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #edfighter #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #breakfast #healthybreakfast #omelette #toast #toasts #peanutbutter #peanutbutterandjelly #pbj


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Happy Friday! Grateful for unexpected growth opportunities, heart centered humans, Puggle smiles, kid laughter, mocha chip cones and jimmies (sprinkles for the non New Englanders :) ) warm summer nights, and reflections of sunsets on the water ❤️ How about you? .
#gratitudechallenge #grateful #gratitude #edrecovery #livefully #recovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ana #mia #osfed #ednos #mindfulness #sober #addictionrecovery #bopo #fitspo #momlife #perspective #appreciation #liveyourbestlife #lifehacks


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you guysss, I deleted my fitness pal!! this is such a huge recovery win and I'm defiantly proud of myself but part of me is just screaming at me to re-install it but I wouldn't because I know that this is necessary to be free from my ed. Hope yall lovelies have a great day ahead!!♡♡
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#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiarecovering #ed #edrecovery #edrecovering #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovering #recoverywin


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Had this massive challenge for dinner tonight! We went out and I had my FAVOURITE thai curry from childhood! It was delicious and worth it, but still quite stressful. But I wasn't going to let my ED destroy this dinner and not let me relive some of my favourite memories, so I ate it all! All of it! Yes, the huge lump of rice was intimidating, but you can't have curry without rice! (And my mom said I had to finish it). I'm feeling OK right now, because I know I NEED those calories to gain weight so I can go to Italy! Gosh I hope it's worth it 😒🇮🇹

#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #treatyoself #treatyourself #selfcare #challenge #balance #progress #thaicurry #thaifood #hotshots #hotshotscafe #lemongrasscafe #cranbrook #roadtrip #curry #eatittobeatit #selflove #fearfoodchallenge #doingitforitaly #doitforitaly #recoveringforlife #recoveringforitaly


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Dinner is sweet potato’s, salmon, avocado, feta, broccoli, on a spring mix —————————————————————-#edfighter #edrecovery #warriors #recovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexic #dinner #sweetpotato #neda #challenge #balanced #yummyfood #healthyfood #healthy #real #organic


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@thedevinakaur
Energy flows intention, think abundantly 😘


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Getting weight restored is one thing, but maintaining it long-term is another. Text is small so if you can’t read it, top photo was last July, middle photo was Dec, bottom photo was today. I’ve worked so hard not to fuck this up and looking at my progress makes me incredibly grateful and determined to stay on this path. It’s not easy, some days are fucking hell, but at the end of the day I want to be happy and healthy. I’ll do whatever it takes to not get back to where I was last summer, I never want to feel that way again. So blessed❤️ Fuck anorexia




#anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #bodyimage #eatingdisorderrecovery #confidence #progressnotperfection #eatingdisorder #bulimia #ednos #bodypositive #bodypositivity #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #fuckanorexia #edrecovery #mentalillness #depression #selfharm #adultswitheds


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Dinner that I packed for work was a sandwich and an apple! The sandwich had ham, turkey, cheddar, lettuce, tomato, and mayo!😋👍🏻 I know it doesn’t seem like much but this sandwich was HUGE!!!!!😱

#anorexia #ana #anorexiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edfighter #edfam #fightana #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #recoveryfood #recoverywin #edfamily #anawarrior #fuckana #strong #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #anarecovery


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I’ve noticed in the past few months, my list of fear foods has been significantly minimized, but today I was faced with another challenge which I haven’t conquered yet in recovery:
A REAL burger from a restaurant.
I was very hesitant to challenge this as I was out of my comfort zone, in a different state, and i was also in a restaurant I was unfamiliar with with seemingly-scary foods.
I not only ordered the burger, with support and encouragement from my amazing mom, but also ordered fries and onion rings, which i split half of with my mom!
I wasn’t able to complete the whole thing, but I ate until I was full, which is also a huge accomplishment.
I’m mastering the art of staying in tune with my body and hunger cues.
Although this was a big challenge food for me, I handled it with so much more composure and willingness than I would have in the past. :)🍔


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dinner:
went to family therapy today and it fucking sucked! I hate my therapist cause I feel like she doesn’t get me at all. I don’t know she keeps on suggesting things that I should be feeling that I just don’t feel and she’s giving my parents suggestions of things to do that I think will just make it worse but my parents won’t listen to me cause they only believe her. idk I just feel like this therapy isn’t really working out. also my mom makes me look really bad in front of my therapist and always stretches the truth to make it seem like I’m way worse than I actually am. like she says that I don’t finish my meals and that I’m not eating the balanced diet I should be. so first of all I always finish my meals and if I don’t I replace it with ensure or another more dense food that is the same amount of calories. She knows this and my dad knows this so I just find it really fucking annoying when she just makes me look like a shit show. i think she kinda wants pitty for the shitty child she was given and like I feel bad for her but she makes all these decisions without thinking about how it will effect me and the pain that I will have to go through. I know that she’s just trying to help me but that really pisses me off and sometimes I really just hate her! also it was really funny because my therapist/doctor said that it doesn’t really matter what I eat as long and I gain weight and that kinda pissed my mom of so that was pretty funny because I was mad at her.
1 fillet Cajun salmon
Spinach
6 strawberries
2 servings or croutons
6 Walnuts
1/2 an avocado
2 tbsp raspberry dressing
1/4 cup of feta
1 whole pint of enlightened vanilla ice cream
#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #ed #eatingdisorder #ana #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #recovering #staystrong #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #foodblogger #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #food #balanceddiet #healthyfood #healthy #happy #foodislife #carbs #followforfollow #like4like #foodporn #ilovefood #foodie


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Everyone says there's a better life after recovery, that things get better, that there's a way to have more good days than bad ones... but also there's no way to get there without living the process, without fighting, without feeling all the pain that comes with it... The only way out is through, the only way we will get to the better life is fighting with everything we've got, speaking about all the things that hurt, holding on to hope when there's nothing else, we have to learn to work hard to endure the toughest moments to be able to get to wherever we want to get... It will be hard, there will be pain, it will get worse before it gets better, the secret is to hold on and don't give up, there actually is a better life after recovery.


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Many times we can't decide where to stand, the fact is pain is unavoidable, we will be thrown into situations that we didn't choose, but regardless, we have the power to bloom where we are planted.


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