Gaining weight in recovery....
I honestly haven’t talked about my past eating disorder on my page at all recently because to be honest, it’s not where my focus is anymore!
Butttt.... for a while it absolutely consumed my life. I remember the fear of gaining weight but knowing that I had to eat more. While I did end up gaining weight, it actually wasn’t because I started eating more calories... the weight gain came from the hypothyroid/gut/inflammation issues that I triggered from binging almost an entire year after I was already fully weight restored.
At the end of the day, I did gain weight and that’s okay because I needed to... and that may not be the answer that you want to hear if you’re struggling too- it wasn’t the answer that I wanted at the time either! But time and time again that was what I was told. Since it’s truly all about emotion and the subconscious, the more you resist the weight gain, the more weight you may end up putting on. Instead of fearing it, embrace it cuz boys like big 🍑🍑 🍑 anyways lol
But at the end of the day, gaining weight does NOT mean becoming obese... it just means returning to a body weight that is safe for you and that your body thrives at. I ended up gaining extra weight (which I have now mostly put off) because I tried so hard to resist it and put sooo much emotional stress on myself that I ended up triggering health issues that caused more weight gain!!! So the moral of this post is- embrace health not weight! The number on the scale is not nearly as important as your health is. When you treat your body right and give your body all of the nutrients it needs, it will level itself out to the perfect body weight for you! 💪🏼
Remember, you are so strong and so beautiful and you can do absolutely anything that you set your mind to 💫