Lately in both my yoga and self Reiki practices, I've been noticing that my heart center has been very tight. I mean, I feel so much love and support and appreciation from all my friends and family so I wasn't quite sure why the energy was stuck in this area. On another note, I know I have been giving love plentifully back to my friends and family. The Heart Center usually tells us that there needs to be more love in a certain area in our life. .
It wasn't until this morning's Reiki practice that I realized why it has felt so constricted lately. What I realized was although I have been receiving love from others and giving love unto others, I haven't been giving much self-love to myself in terms of loving self-talk and appreciation. I haven't been appreciating myself in terms of the dialogue in my head.
After realizing this, I made it a point to tell myself all the good attributes about the person that I am and fully embrace it. This mental dialogue is not narcissism because it's not a comparison. In fact, it's healthy self-appreciation. It helps me to remember who I am because after all, I am a part of a greater collective conciousness. And to appreciate myself is to appreciate the Universe. And to neglect myself is to neglect the Universe. What I strengthen in myself is what I strengthen in others.
I used to have a very toxic mental dialogue. And I'm glad I took inventory of that 5 years ago and decided to change the way I spoke to myself since then. Sometimes I forget and fall back into that trap. But the beauty is that I have the choice to change my mind at any moment.