I met this beautiful lady twenty-five years ago. The first time I held her, I was a proud big sister. I pretended she was a little babydoll, and that she was all mine. I told her how much I loved her and that I would always protect her. She was given the name Jessica, and I thought that was so cool, because I literally named every baby doll and Barbie I played with, Jessica. So we instantly had that connection and I thought my love for the name somehow played a small part.
This picture colors a beautiful memory, which it was indeed, but the reality behind our story is filled with many black holes. I only saw Jessica one more time after she was born and then I had to wait twenty-four years to meet her again.
She was always in my heart. And throughout the years, when people would ask if I had siblings. I would tell them, with the same pride I had when I held both Jessica and my little brother Nathan, "Yes, I have a brother and a sister. I don't know where my sister is, but I'll find her one day." I thought that time was going to come when Facebook made its debut to the world. I was like, "Yes, this is my answer!" I searched for her for several years!Reaching out to other girls with the same name, I sent messages that read "I think you might be my sister." I take pride in my Facebook investigating skills, but I had zero luck! I was starting to think maybe she didn't know I existed and that one of the girls I had reached out to was truly my sister but didn't know it.Over the years I reached out again to the same women just to make sure. Still nothing.
The truth is, it wasn't God's timing for Jessica and I to reconnect, despite my relentless attempts to make that happen. He knew the exact moment all along. I was the one who started to doubt Him. He knew the moment our hearts and minds would be emotionally open and ready to meet.
That opportunity came last summer. Jessica found me- through Facebook. I guess she has better investigative skills than I do.
She's everything I hoped her to be and so much more. She's my sister and I love her. Happy Birthday, Jessica.
To those of you who are waiting for something. Be patient. I promise you, it's worth the wait.