~Retail management & mental health~
My original profession was a translator. The best job I ever had. I traveled so much and met some amazing people. When I married my husband, because of his job, we used to move every 18 to 24 months. One job I could pick up where ever we moved to, was retail. Eventually I moved up to middle management; store manager etc. I worked for this high end, high street furniture & clothing company for a few years. Those were the worst years of my retail career. I, as well as my Spanish, Venezuelan & Italian colleagues were exposed to premeditated racial bullying. This was later taken to a hearing and the person in question and her accomplice were prosecuted and disciplined.
Today, I went back to that place. I know an old lady who still works there. Her only daughter lives in Japan; my friend is quite often lonely. I wanted to give her a hug. As I walked in, I saw one of the bullies. Immediately, I had such an awful, uncomfortable feeling in my stomach. Almost a sense of panic. She was still condescending. She was surprised that I was still here and that I hadn’t gone back to my country. I felt unsettled. Then I felt so cross with myself that she still makes me feel uncomfortable. I am nearly 41! But I suppose the hurt she caused me and my friends was quite deep. When I worked with her, I had postnatal/postpartum depression. She fully played on that. Now that I am sitting on my own, having my coffee, with my name misspelled yet again I realise that I am doing the best job in the world, for me. I chose to leave that horrid place. I chose to completely change my career. I am so happy working with children and being my own boss. She is still there. She looked stressed and aged. I forgive her. The feeling in my tummy is slowly going. It’s ok to feel that. I am human, with very complex emotions. But be brave. *uck it. Life is too short. Plan carefully & leave toxic jobs. #mentalhealth #motherhood #payitforward #forgiveness #kindness #love #retail #retailmanagement #manager #bullying #bully #wellness #mindfulness #love #parenthood #parenting #expat #workingmum #workingmom #mompreneur #mumpreneur #wellbeing #pnd #ppd #behappy