Hmmmm, ever been told you have an “attitude problem”? This must have been on repeat from my parents, teachers, family friends (and probably a whole lot of other places that I can’t even remember) for years and years in my life.
Last week my 3 year old spat back at me, “mum, you need to stop your attitude”. And that got me thinking, the pattern is starting to repeat. Similar words are said to her, because at times, she’s hard to handle. She’s parroting it right back.
All those people telling me there was something wrong with MY attitude, was actually ALL about THEM . Me challenging the mould, confronting contradictions, calling things out. That TRIGGERED them. And, the only tool they had was to tell me there was something wrong with me, to try and (unintentionally, I suppose) smother that spirit out of me - sadly today, I noticed that was sometimes my thinking about my daughter ‘if only she wasn’t so.....’ And that is ALL about me, my triggers, my reaction, my patterns.
It was EASIER for them if they weren’t challenged.
It was comfortable for them if they weren’t triggered.
They wanted me to conform so their life was easier
And so, subconsciously, I built a belief that I needed to stay in the pack. Keep my mouth shut and fit in.
Right now though, the world is crying out for people who are;
Willing to share their voice, their view
Challenging the status quo
Ready to break free from the pack
Wanting to make an impact
Ready to live from their truth
So, have you ever been told you have an attitude problem? Is it time to see that for what it really is.... a calling to make a difference in the world?