CW: discussion of mental health ••• These photos were taken months apart, and Gnar had never done this to me before, but Bane used to do this all the time. Small moments like this remind me that he'll always be with me. My life has changed so much in just a few short months. I lost my lifeline, battled through some of the most intense suicidal thoughts I'd experienced in a long time, was diagnosed with a new terrifying condition, gained a new furry partner and friends, and moved across the country as a last ditch effort to save myself. Some nights are worse than others, and sometimes im not confident that I can survive. But even on nights like tonight, when my body is failing, my brain is convincing me of so many awful things, and I am terrified of what's to come, I know it's worth it. I'm snuggled up with Gnar, I have some pretty damn wonderful friends and partners, and all the incredible memories Bane gave me. I'm scared of a future without Bane, and the reality of having a progressive and fatal illness, but I'm trying to keep going, and that's all that matters right now. Remember that what I share online is not the full story. I hide alot of my struggles and symptoms from people around me because it is scary. I'm just trying to make it, and that's okay. We do not owe an explanation for everything and it's okay to not be okay take care of yourself and remember that what others think about you does not define you. Be safe, and take it one moment at a time. You can do this. •••
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