For a couple of days (it could honestly be 2 weeks). I’ve been on such a mood, let me try to explain. I wasn’t mad but not ok. Not depressed but not cheerful. Not sad but not happy. Not miserable but not joyful. So many confused emotions and even worse not knowing why let alone be able to explain to myself or my husband. My attempt to explain it to him was, “maybe I am going through Menopause but… NOT menopause” No (he said), it’s Jesus. Due to scheduled training days, competitions, simply the business of LiFe and the lack of priority / time management it’s been a few weeks since we’ve had fellowship with other believers. Sermons online? Sure. Was I spending time with Jesus? Sure. Was I doing my mentoring matters assignments? Sure. Praying? Sure. But not enough. Obviously. Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong (1 Cor 16:13). Walt and I & Preacher love to go on evening walks. Preacher gets to go lizard hunting and Walt and I just talk. Literally have some of our best conversations to reminisce and make future plans like retirement! (Maybe a little too soon but… it’s something that gets us excited to talk about). We also pray a lot during those walks for things that have come to pass in real life or passed in our hearts / desire (Praise Jesus). But we also use to thank the Lord for the yes, no, maybe later prayers. We’ve noticed that we’ve even managed to stop doing that (how did that happen)? Praise God for the mixed emotions I’ve been feeling true conviction indeed! Since, we’ve been more aware of our time, free time and busy time and making it a point to bring Jesus back in all we do. What I needed was accountably…. Walt reminded me I wasn’t going through the early stages of menopause, nor was I struggling with depression. Jesus… I was missing Jesus and have allowed the busyness and emotions to take over. It’s amazing how quickly the devil sees an opportunity. Be on guard; stay firm in the faith (we are warned). Can any of you ladies relate? Next month we are having our “Girl talk “ series with guest speakers sharing about living for what really matters most. join us as some of us get back on track or simply be encouraged!