The last two weeks of my life have been (maybe) the most stressful I’ve ever experienced, with my nerves frayed so thin and running on such little sleep, but I really appreciate all of you who have reached out with good wishes for my baby Walter! It means so much to me. He’s doing well, all things considered, and on the mend from his perineal urethostomy surgery. I’m keeping him hydrated all day with an oral syringe + water mixed with a tiny bit of wet food, which he loves, and he’s on a rigorous schedule of multiple meds all at different times per day, so it’s a lot to deal with, but I am handling it!
This is a bit of a personal confession, but in trying to see a silver lining to this shitty situation, I recognize that one of my biggest insecurities/weaknesses has always been an inclination to sit back and let others do difficult things for me- resulting in fear that I can’t handle difficult situations on my own. I’ve been forced to deal with this one on my own, and it sucks, I’ve cried and felt lonely and sorry for myself a lot, I’ve missed Tyler more than I even thought was possible, but I’m still here and life goes on. This too shall pass.
Things have been chaotic and if you’ve sent me a message in the last week, I WILL get back to you ASAP! I’m catching up with work whenever I can steal some time away from watching Walter like a crazy overprotective cat Mom... and things are progressing, slowly but surely, like this wholesale order which will be shipped tomorrow!