#throwbackthursday which can also be used for #thunderthighthursday .
-the girl on the left was me in college, I remember my calories wouldn't ever go above 1200, if I was drinking that night I wouldn't eat more than 700 calories, I was working the shop floor at Asda 20 hours a week around taking my A levels, and hammering myself on the treadmill or doing the home workout insanity, I wanted as skinny legs as possible!
-I remember this night I saw someone from school, and they commented on how much weight I'd lost, I thrived off it, and actually went on to lose another 5lbs, I got down to 8st, at a height of 5ft6lbs, I was obsessed with getting below 8st. I couldn't ever quite get there, and I beat myself up about it constantly, I was unhealthy. I remember feeling light headed everyday, constant mood swings, unable to concentrate. I smoked in replacement of food, drank smoothies so I wouldn't have to chew. And in all honesty, that was not what I saw in the mirror, I saw someone who was huge. it's so scary now looking back to see how much I damaged myself, I'm genuinely sad that I couldn't see how much I could affect myself in the future.
-the right is me a week or so ago, about a year of fully committing to growing my legs, in a place now where I am regaining control with food and happiness, learning balance.at present I can't train legs due to a ligament injury in my knee, which I'm genuinely gutted about as I don't want to lose strength, or size, and more importantly, legs are the days I live for! I have so much fun training with some amazing people, learning self love
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#fitchicks #girlswithmuscles #progress #strong
#bodytransformation #bodybuilding #motivation #fitnessbody #gymflow #fitnessmotivation #girlawesome #progressnotperfection