With all of the health issues I’ve struggled with in the last 8 yrs I can confirm that I am one of those people who goes the whole hog when it comes to being ill ♀️ I don’t do things by halves -
I get ‘aggressive’ cancer.
I get hormone receptive cancer.
I get ‘severe’ endometriosis.
All of my reproductive organs stick together and also to other organs like my bowel.
I have babies - I end up with 2 c-sections and later find out due to complications in healing my uterus is fused to my stomach wall hence the lower abdomen pain for the last 11yrs.
I have a hysterectomy at 35yrs old and let me tell you I am most definitely not one of those women who ‘sail’ through the menopause!!
And when it comes to side effects of things - surgery, drugs, menopause - I get hit like a ton of bricks! One of the less serious & least painful side effects of all of the above but probably the most annoying has been weight gain (Falling in love 6 yrs ago 100% didn’t help with that either!)
I looked at myself over xmas and I didn’t know who I was. I knew I was still a Mummy, a fiancée, a Childminder, a smiley face...but I realised I’d lost me. I rarely did anything for me and I didn’t like the me I was on the outside or the inside if I’m pretty honest.
The hysterectomy took away a lot of my chronic pain, the chemo gave me my life back, my children, fiancée and work give me a purpose. But I was sad, tired, unfit, unkind on my body and very very aware of my own mortality.
So I made a decision to find me again.
It’s a work in progress. But I’m stronger physically, all of my clothes are looser on me, I’m loving training - not just for the physical results but for the fact that everyday I train, every session is another shot at nurturing my body to keep me alive. That’s is the seriousness of it for me. Physical exercise and a healthy lifestyle could literally save my life. Keeping my bones strong as I can’t take HRT could literally prevent me from having osteoporosis.
With the support of my fiancée, my 2 amazing children who also love to train and my lovely PT friend who encourages, advises and pushes me on a regular basis I’m actually doing it - and I’m loving it!