(if you read my descriptions, and you wanna know why I'm upset, plz read this)
I'm not the most handsome guy in the world, and I accept that. I just wish a guy would actually love me. I find myself asking why I'm not good enough. I'm just so full of insecurity, and I have been for a while now. I thought I found the one around this time last year. Turned out he did like me, until he found a guy who lived in his state. Then he just ignored me and left me like I was nothing. He never even really ended things with me, just ignored me. I was deleting old pics off my phone and saw a screenshot of one of our convos. "You are my baby boy, no matter what." Those words flash in my eyes everytime I blink. He's been the only guy to accept that part of me, he let me call him daddy and everything. And I didn't meet him under ddlb circumstances. So, he just accepted that part of me. No other guy has ever accepted all of me like he did, I guess that's why I thought he was the one. I've been tempted to message him...but he has a bf now and he's happy. So... I probably shouldn't. I just wanna know why he threw away what we had. Either it was all a lie, or he just left me because that guy was closer. Does he still have feelings for me? He claimed he did, before he totally blew me off, after I caught him cheating on me. He said this guy was closer, and he needed the attention that I couldn't give him. This is why I don't trust distance anymore.