Warning: this post is going to get a little raw and a little personal. Stop reading and/ or unfollow if you don’t dig it or resonate with it.
Some kids grow up with limiting false beliefs being installed in them from a really young age. This can range from so many different things, mild to severe criticism to much more traumatic and traumatizing events. Keep to the forefront how impressionable you are at that age, and it’s definitely not the same as an adult taking the same amount of emotional or physical abuse. Kids are sponges. Eric Erickson even devotes an entire 8 stage development cycle, calling 2-4 years Will: autonomy vs. shame/doubt, and 4-5 years Purpose: Initiative vs. Guilt.
As a Cap moon, no doubt something emotionally upsetting happened to me around that age range. My false limiting belief was that I was unwanted. This can stem from some simple, simple things keep in mind. Like being lost and left alone at a store at this age, or feeling unheard by your support system, authority figures, friends, or peers. My parents were also older when they found out about having me, and for that reason too felt more wanted by my father, than my mother. Plus my Dad didn’t fully open up his emotions until much later in life, right before he passed away. So know if your thing is more on the abuse end, or more mild, or feeling forsaken, or like a standout, or the million other reasons that would take way too long to list here, know healing is not linear, like time is not linear.
Know you can be deeply wounded but still willing to overcome, and guided to help others heal through similar experiences, relationships, and upbringing. So guess my message is this simple: allow your wounds to open you to healing yourself and helping others. Truth and telling your story heals too. When someone thinks they know what you’re feeling, they usually don’t. That’s where compassion comes in, and the ego has to step aside. You have unique individual purpose. You are intuitive. You are worthy!(making me think of Wayne and Garth saying the opposite lol-“I’m not worthy”). Take that though, and remember that you are worthy and these beliefs are unnecessary embedded blockers. Read more.