On Sunday, I looked at my half marathon countdown and saw 28 days. Less than a month until the Muddy Mini Half Marathon I signed up for - and I honestly felt really nervous. I started preparing with 100 days to go, which felt like a lifetime away. The past month, going through ups and downs of life, busy days, draining days, days off - I decided to NOT force myself into a typical, Pinterest half marathon training plan. With my type A personality (or type triple AAA battery personality, as I've heard it called) I knew I would push myself too fast to a point of burnout or I would "fail" to complete every exact detail of the plan and get so disappointed in myself that running just wouldn't be fun anymore. I got scared that I would push myself into losing the happy feelings I had recently gained about running, and then I'd drop running altogether. So, in my best efforts to preserve the joy and excitement of my runs, I've only done what's felt good on any given day - no external pressures. And I've LOVED it. With that being said, when I saw the number on Sunday, I suddenly felt very unprepared for the race I had signed up for.
Yesterday, in a completely unplanned run, I proved to myself that I am more capable and more trained than I think. I completed more than 14.5 miles and it felt like such a win! I didn't go in to the workout with the goal of hitting the half marathon distance, but I kept feeling strong so I kept pushing forward. Now I have the extra mental and physical confidence to keep going on days when it doesn't feel as easy. Running is empowering and I'm glad it has stayed that way.