I have had every reason to scream, cry, lock myself in my room and 5 years ago that's pretty much what I would do.
The electric bill would come in and I would cry to my hubby so he would call and ask for extensions, yes we have had organizations pay our utilities in the past, been reliant on food banks and food stamps and all I would do is cry. Life was tough, but how I reacted made it worse.
I broke again when I lost my mum. I locked myself in my room, assumed the fetal position and couldn't move. The only reason I ate or drank was Rowan needing me. Yet I was able to survive, I did better than when I lost my grandad where I locked myself away for over 2 weeks and refused to celebrate my birthday for 20 years because he died 5 minutes before my birthday. See I kinda make things extreme.
People think I have this picture perfect life now because of how I react. But I still have struggles, thankfully not financial anymore but life struggles. Seriously my kids can drive me up the wall, dealing with medical issues in the family, stress I put on myself for getting things done. But now I try and react with hope, positivity and gratitude because 5 years ago this year would have broken me again. The stress of all the appointments, the emergency delivery, the medical insurance debacle I am dealing with this week.
Dont let life break you, let it fuel you.