This post contains sensitive material that may make some uncomfortable.
Choosing to share this part of my life with you all, understanding and accepting that I may be met with judgmental opinions, scrutiny or even cruelty, has taken quite a bit of mental growth on my part. I know there are so many more loving, kind, and encouraging people in the world than there are the opposite but it still took sometime to retrain my brain to detach from the agreements I had made.
My purpose in sharing this is to encourage and support everyone out there that may be wanting to make a change in their lives, regardless of the type of change (physical, spiritual, lifestyle...etc.) and even to share my own excitement and experience with stepping out and embracing my self fully. Many people consider embracing oneself fully to strictly be “loving and accepting your body/self exactly the way it is without changing anything other than your mindset about it...” not realizing, that suggestion in itself is entirely contradictory. While I support, encourage and have been practicing mindfulness for many years, I do not agree with the above statement. Acceptance encompasses the desire to change something about yourself as well. Finding balance with that is challenging I know but I am confident if I had not stepped outside of the idea that I didn’t “need” to change anything other than my mindset, my inability to accept myself would have continued to haunt me. Personally, I was conflicted. I knew my outward appearance didn’t define me, however I also knew the way I felt internally did not match externally and that did not sit well with me. Some things we do for vanity’s sake and some we do for peace of mind. I am a strong believer in doing whatever feels right for you and enables you to be your happiest self, no matter the motivation behind it.
This surgery hurt like hell, took wayyyy longer for me to recover from than I expected and to be completely honest had me doubting my sanity the first couple of weeks for putting myself through the amount of pain I was in but now that it is all said and done, I can confidently say I would do it again. LLLG #nohernia #embracingself