This pain has been prolonged for so long and has become this deep sadness that I feel now.
The degree is always different but sadness never goes away.
Sometimes I feel nothing and it is worst than being sad, I can't cry in moments like these because there's nothing to cry about but there's nothing to smile about too.
Most of the time when I talk about it people say "oh everything is ok, you're beautiful" or "that's something in your mind, will go away soon".
It's not as easy as people might think, years has been passed and this deep sadness still here and beauty it's not synonyms of happiness.
#justiceforjunior ..May God give comfort to his MOTHER& Family...This hurts,as a mother,sister,cousin friend....This is too close to home BX seeing all these footage and in my head trying to figure out how no one HELPED ...Store Clerks,Neighbors ,Cops who just stood there....Senseless Murder..I cried my HEART OUT ,feeling so sad for such a young life lost, SAD for HIS MOTHER& SIBLINGS ...RIP BABY BOY....
Panic in the house this morning: TV broke just before the start of the Germany WC Soccer Game, mad scrambling and lots of panic to finally watch with a magnifying glass on tiny screen... hubby not happy...! ......#worldcup2018#soccer#tvbroke#nothappy#panic #