let’s talk about something really scary
left pic: nearly 160lbs, unhealthy, unhappy and unconfident. not many photos of my body exist from this time. I was hopping from one fad diet to another, wrestling with food as if it was the enemy. I had so many bad habits and so little drive and I knew I needed to make a change.
right pic: 130lbs, strong, confident and full of life. I love my body and all the wonderful things it does for me, I love the gym and my time spent getting stronger and I love my life!
the scary topic of this post is change. I know change can be the scariest thing in the world, but it can also be the best thing for us. I think back to when I made this initial change and decided to fall in love with fitness and how beneficial that was for me.
If you hadn’t assumed by my posts/my absence, I just recently survived a HUGE change in my life; a pretty serious breakup that involved a lot of lying, loss of friendships, tears and heartbreak. this sudden change made me want to stop everything and just close myself off from everyone and everything. I took some time off from the gym, fell off the wagon on my nutrition, even stated picking up some of my old bad habits. the moment I felt myself slipping back down past slippery slopes, I knew I had to make a decision: to go back to the left photo and the unhappiness that accompanied it? or to buck up and stay true to my love for myself and my body. I guess we can see what I chose
the moral of the story is - some change feels good, some change feels really bad. either way, you have to allow yourself room to breathe, accept the change, and move on, even if it’s scary
here’s my moving on to more health, more happiness and more life.