This past year I learned a lot about relationships (all types). I learned a lot about myself & how I interact with others. I became more present & practiced mindful relating. This has been transformative
One of the biggest changes I’ve experienced, has come in the form of receptiveness. Feeling comfortable enough to open up & receive from others. Receive love, affirmations, help & so on. When one grows up giving & giving her/his ability to receive can become stunted. Later in life, patterned behavior (& potential core wounding) can prevent true intimacy from developing. The elements one craves in relationships will eventually be blocked. However, If one is able to heal from false narratives & integrate traumas and/ or wounds, then true connection can blossom
For a long time, I could not receive the type of love & care that I gave others. I didn’t know how to be receptive to someone’s love towards me, beyond a surface level. Even though I’ve always wanted love & intimacy- I was blocking it. To address this, I had to confront the parts of me that didn’t want love & intimacy in order to understand what I was truly craving. Turns out, c o n s i s t e n c y was what I needed & craved. Why? Because consistent streams of love & care were never present. The rug had been ripped out from under me many times. Leading me to subconsciously prepare for it to happen in every type of relationship
I have taken these discoveries & I am working on this practice daily as I navigate my interactions with others. I’m hoping I bring joy into every room I enter
I am currently surrounded by people in my life that serve as mirrors...guiding me in a direction that allows me to flourish. I am so grateful for the people who continue to show me kindness, love, support & nurturing I appreciate this tribe that I have welcomed in & I appreciate you.
Thank you T, for being one of my people & asking me to share what’s on my heart even when I try my hardest to box it up. You’re a real G. [Continued below...]