In this morning's meditation, I received the message "relax." I had no clue what that meant. I asked for clarification and received nothing. I then asked if there was any other message I needed to receive and heard, loudly and clearly, "you are loved, you are protected." I thanked the Universe and sat quietly, hoping to better understand the message.
I have been having bad dreams--nightmares--about teaching for the past few weeks. The semester doesn't start until the end of August and I'm already having nightmares. I'm clear that the academy is not the right place for me but I also need the paycheck and insurance as I make this transition to the next chapter of my life and have been focusing on the things I love about my job in order to maintain positive energy and continue to attract positive outcomes in my life.
So why the nightmares? I have been under attack in the academy since the beginning, since my doctoral studies. Department Chairs, peers, colleagues, students... it comes from all directions.
The message that I am loved and protected promises me that I am okay and that the academy won't break me. I can relax, focus on doing what I do best (teaching, advising, and mentoring), and know that I am safe.