I remember the exact moment I realized just how different my relationship with my Mom was from my brothers. I think I was 15. It was Summer. We were staying temporarily in Pensacola before we moved to Texas. .
That evening me, my Dad, my brothers, and some girls that I'd just met, helped hundreds of baby sea turtles get to the ocean. They were all so tiny, yet they fought their way through coountless valleys of sand to get to the water.
The site was so beautiful. We did our best to keep the seagulls away, and help the turtles that got turned the wrong direction get back on course. .
Once night fell, we went back to the hotel. My new friends invited me and my brothers to hang out at the hotel pool, after all we'd just connected over this whole experience. Of course my Dad would be there and their parents. .
But no. My Mom insisted I stay in the hotel room with her. My Dad and brothers left without hesitation. They didn't challenge her. They didn't fight for me to go. It didn't effect them, so they just left. My Mom didn't have a reason. She just said her answer was no and that was final. And then she laid down, turned off all the lights, t.v. and went to sleep, leaving me to sit in the dark. Alone.
I was devastated. It wasn't fair. But the truth was this happened ALL the time. My brothers were allowed to have friends. I was not. My brothers were allowed to go out and do things. I was not. My brothers were her biological children, I was not. And the list goes on...But as I sat in the darkness crying I remembered the turtles journey to get to the water. It was ROUGH. They literally had obstacle after obstacle. Yet they faced them each head on. Eventually they would reach freedom and go on to live beautiful lives.
I made the decision that night, I was going to fight just like those baby turtles did. That I would do any and everything I could to get away from the life I was given and create my own path. To dream up huge goals for myself and do each and every one of them. .
I'm so grateful for that day. I know most people wouldn't say that but had the things that happened in my childhood not happened, I wouldn't be the go getter I am today.