the picture on the left was taken 17 days after i started testosterone. i was so depressed, full of self-hatred, and impatient. but, i was hopeful. i was hopeful because i knew i had waited my whole life to medically transition, and i could only work harder and harder for my goals from that point on. looking back at my younger self, i am full of sadness, pride, and protectiveness. i wish i could’ve been there for myself like i deserved (and am still working on). but without all of the fighting, and hardships, my current self wouldn’t be here today.