We all have journeys, and they all look different, and today I’m going to be vulnerable with you and share a bit of mine.
My journey with my body is likely similar to many of yours, my hope for you is that you get to part 3 of my story, and spend as much of your life possible there. Part 1. As a teenager I despised my body, I talked about how much I hated it, I exercised to oblivion, I took part in all bulimic activities, I starved myself, I judged myself, I judged myself, and I judged myself some more! Eventually these things wound me up to being super sick in the hospital... the photo on the left was taken about a year into counseling at the Eating Disorder Clinic after my hospitalization, when I was “on the mend.” Part 2. In my early twenties was wrapped up in exercise. It was my coping mechanism for every emotion. I had absolutely no joy in movement, no joy in my body. I was taking so many supplements to support my races, I was getting puffier, more swollen, more disgusted by my body, wnd more resentful of exercise and food. At this point I was eating the cleanest of my life, and I still looked puffy and unhappy. My digestive system was unhappy and so were my body and soul. I was racing not because I enjoyed it, but because I had no clue who I was without it!
Part 3. A lot more has occurred between them and now, but I can honestly say that I am happier in my body than I’ve ever been. I enjoy movement, I have fun with my body, I have more energy, I enjoy food and am present with it, I move my body when it wants to and how it wants to, I actually can say that I love and appreciate my body now!
By the way, for those of you curious, there is about a 40lbs weight difference between the left and right photos. ***** Curious what got me from the second photo to the third? Well, first a car crash that made me stop, slow down and look at my life, and second was a whole hell of a lot of gratitude. Shifting the way I thought about my body allowed my body to change.
If you’re looking to have any level of a kind relationship with your body, then I recommend you start having a bit of appreciation for it. .
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