This past year changed me. I accomplished what I once believed to be impossible. I beat depression, I learned to love myself, I let go of the pain I have carried with me my whole life and for the first time since I was a child, I actually want to live. I grew strong in my faith, cut the bullshit and toxic people out of my life, found myself and finally learned what happiness is. My future has never looked so bright and I can't wait to start living. In 6 months I will be fulfilling my dream of finally moving back to California. I know I'll face struggles and will have to overcome more obstacles along my journey. But I'm not afraid. I have God on my side and for the first time, I have me on my side, as well. It's been a hellish road getting to this point which I honestly never thought I'd reach but here I am. As much pain & heartache as I have endured, I wouldn't change a single thing. That pain made me into who I am & I couldn't be more proud of myself. I am sharing this because if anyone of you (I'm sure only like 2 people are going to actually read this lol) are hurting or feel lost or like giving up, hang in there. If I would have given up, I would have never known how beautiful life could be & I would have left this earth not knowing the person I am capable of becoming. I am not even close to where I want to be mentally, physically and financially but that's ok! It's ok if you aren't satisfied with who you are & where you're at in life right now. It's ok to not have everything figured out. It's ok to feel lost & afraid. As long as you don't let that fear and hopelessness control you. Take whatever you are struggling with and use it to push you forward. Learn your weaknesses and turn them into your strengths. Be honest with who you are right now & who you want to be & ask yourself if you are on the right track to becoming that person. You control your life. Without failure, without pain, without struggle, there are no lessons to be learned. Be grateful for the curveballs life throws at you. Use those lessons learned to make yourself stronger, wiser & more fearless. This life can be so wonderful, ladies & gentlemen, it all depends on how you choose to live it.