If you know me, you know I’m pretty open when I write. I pretty much reserve all the details of my life for when I write . This right here is my world. My family. Gosh I am so incredibly blessed to have them, because I’m aware that there are many lonely people in this world. Here’s the funny thing though... I can still find myself scrolling through instagram to see other people’s lives and think, “hey, that was supposed to be my dream..” yep, there it is. Honest as it comes. If I’m not careful, that little thought takes me on a rabbit trail of ungratefulness, doubt, insecurity, and long moments of wasted time. Every season is different, and I always say that I hope I do each season justice. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I definitely don’t. If I could encourage you with one reminder today, it would be to embrace your season. EMBRACE it, because it doesn’t last forever. Remember that God has new and exciting things waiting in every new season.. we just need to remember to let go of the former and grab on to the new. #blogger#family#blessed#dreams#momlife
We’re at that “4 month sleep regression” point, and it’s pretty fun. @jeremie_nyc should win the “Dad of the year” award for getting up nearly every time she wakes up. But the greatest news is that she’s still a joyful and healthy baby. #sendCoffee
The other day, my husband told me he read another person jumped from the George Washington bridge. Another person believed their life wasn’t worth anything. I once heard that the GW bridge is a common place for suicide... I have no response sufficient enough. But here’s my letter to you:
As we both prayed together over that bridge, I was reminded of a time when I was struggling with depression, crippled with anxiety, and even had thoughts of “does my existence here really matter?” No joke, it scared the hell out of me. It scared me because I hadn’t struggled with depression in such a heavy way... I’ve had some dark days, but not like that. Come to find out, a major contributor to those feelings, thoughts, and extreme anxiety was the medication I was taking. A short time later, I quit taking that medication and noticed a difference immediately. I can’t imagine having those thoughts, feelings and crippling anxiety all of the time. Many battle this, and I do not speak of this lightly.. but please know that I am not one of those people who believes “welp, I guess this is just their lot in life.” No. I believe with all of my heart that God wants to heal anyone who struggles with this. Maybe I just hope someone who does struggle reads this, just so I can remind them of how much they are loved, valued and have a genuine place in this world. I suppose there’s something that aches the heart of every man and woman. For me, it’s mental illness. I want to punch the devil in face for all of eternity for messing with humanity. Let me be a reminder in this very long insta post... you are LOVED. You are VALUED. You are WANTED. You are an irreplaceable TREASURE. You are the “on purpose” created creation, by our loving creator. You are MEANT TO BE. You are not a mistake. You are without a doubt beautiful in every way. Pick your head Back up, and open up the Bible. Read Psalm 139. Just trust me...it was written with you in mind.
So blessed by the house of God we've made our home for so long. I pray that our daughter will only know the worship of THE KING. #heartMelt#fathersanddaughters#worship (Have no idea who took this, but thank you amazing photo team)
This year has been so monumental for me. Yes, of course it’s because I became a mom. But it’s not just because of that...although it’s played a major part. This year is the year I stepped into a promise fulfilled. I kind of only realized it this morning...as strange as that may seem. I only remembered this morning the moment years ago when I wondered if I’d ever be a mom. I’ve always had this desire to love on the unloved, to protect the unprotected, and to care for someone. I suppose I suppressed that desire because I wasn’t with the “right” man at the time. You see, when the pieces aren’t aligned right, others won’t understand your desires, your dreams, and your visions. Actually, there will be times when it is aligned right and still some may not understand. There is a great peace in being smack dab in the middle of God’s perfect place for your life. There are most certainly dreams unfulfilled in my life, and even more so, dreams yet to be discovered. But I KNOW I’m in the right place. I know I’m walking in a dream fulfilled. I’m so aware of that peace. So when I feel frustrated because I’m not entirely sure of all of the details, I can revisit this moment right here, and remember the peace I felt. I had just found out I was pregnant with our first baby in this photo. I wasn’t sure what would happen, but I had peace. Peace even before that storm hit. Oh how beautiful His peace is to me. For all those who are still waiting for your fulfilled promise, I’m praying peace over your hearts today. #bloggermom#peace#bloggers#canada
Dear Meli... I hope you know just how special you are to me. I hope you know how grateful I am that our husbands became friends, because now we are. You’ve been nothing but a huge support and blessing in my life, and I’m forever grateful for you! You’re always quick to celebrate others, but today is YOUR day. We celebrate you, dear. Love you to the ends of the earth... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! #friends
Ever have one of those weeks where you forget major and important things at home nearly every single day? Like I remember to pack every little thing... but oh well... not this week!!
Had to go into work for a bit this A.M. with Gigi to meet a contractor, and Jer had a French lesson to teach. I leave the house with content baby in carrier. baby girl decides to scream in said carrier on subway, so I took her out. Get all the way to work (an hour away) and realize I forgot my work keys. . Baby girl was fine but decided screaming was much more fun. So here I am... feeding her outside of my office entrance on the step here. Hero husband cancels lesson, jumps in car to meet me with keys. Contractor is awesome and waiting all the while. some days I feel like a winning mom, and other days (or weeks in my case), I feel not so much. But you know what? Even when we barely make it, we are still winning. That’s what I have to remind myself. It’s easier to say that to other people though. So... here’s your Saturday morning storytime lesson. Special shout out to my husband - thank you!
I had this moment today where I thought to myself, “now what?” I was pondering where I felt the Lord was leading our family, and what that was going to look like. I’ve felt for some time now that God was shifting around some things, and that it is leading us somewhere new. Somewhere Unchartered by us. In the same moment I felt excitement, I felt a bit of that “butterflies” feeling you get when you’re nervous. I think I’m in a new place with a completely blank canvas again, and I find myself saying, “Now what?” I may not know all the details, or what my career life will look like 5 years from now. Gosh, he can change our lives in a moment, hey? With just one moment of an act of obedience, Our lives could change. So nothing is certain, except one thing. Jesus still remains faithful, and he’s still so incredibly good. My canvas has never felt more blank, more like “starting at zero”, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Following Jesus has always been an adventure. And...There’s no one else I’d rather go on this life long adventure with than my crazy babe of a husband.
The other day I had this thought that Giselle probably knows Jesus better than I do. It was a nice thought, and mostly from a place of knowing her life hadn’t yet been tainted by unanswered prayers and unfair life circumstances. I mean, I love watching her giggle at the ceiling, because I hope she sees angels. I pray for those angels to protect her every single night before bed. So, I honestly hope she sees them. One thing I also pray is that she would know the voice of the Holy Spirit clearer than even my voice. I pray that she wouldn’t be reluctant to follow God’s simple promptings in her life. I pray these things because I don’t want her to have doubts about God’s call on her life. I want her to be confident in it, and rule at living it out. As a brand new Mom, I’m so much more aware of living this as an example. My prayer earlier this year was that I wouldn’t continue to live a “safe and comfortable” life. I prayed that I would be quicker to obey His promptings, and trust His Voice more. Sometimes it takes a lot more faith than I expect. But it’s worth it. I want my children to live a life of faith and adventure...without crippling fear and insecurity. In Jesus name, they will. #momPrayers#mondayThoughts#instaStory#storyTime#happy3monthsbabygirl#threemonthsold#gisellesophie
TWO YEARS. That's nothing in married years, but it's a start. It's a truly beautiful start. One that I am so glad I started with you. I think it's completely insane to commit your whole life to one person, and yet, I think it's the most wonderful gift that God gave us. Marriage. The devotion to one another, to work through the hard stuff, to love through the pain of unfair life circumstances, and the chance to celebrate the most glorious moments with the one I want to share it with before anyone else. These are the days I will forever cherish. I pray our daughter always sees a marriage that will set her up for a win. I hope she always sees us being silly, dancing, and serving the Lord with our whole hearts. You will forever be my ONE and only, babe. Thank you for being you, and for loving me the way that you do. You are a loving father, and an even more loving and devoted husband. I can't say it enough. I LOVE YOU. Xx #happyAnniversary#twoYears#manymoreToCome. (Just some of my favorite moments over the last year ) #marriage#married#couplegoals#couples#love#faithful#blogger#bloggerstyle#lifestyleblogger#parents#husbandandwife