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Sometimes I tell Brian that I feel like an alien to this planet and wonder what the heck is wrong with me for not being able to handle it here. 🖖🏼 I get frustrated easily with worldly things like a Big Mac being $1 while finding simple, organic food that nourishes my soul can be more challenging and expensive to come by and how that makes no sense and how that's just the smallest thing that overwhelms me about being here on Earth. Then there's humans destroying the planet, and destroying each other in war, but that's too much for me to think about right now. Then I remember. It's this planet that is in complete discord, and I have been trying to find my peace and my way in this world wondering what's wrong with me for not being able to acquaint to an environment that's been laiden with chemicals and gmos. This isn't a victim cry, this is me being fucking easy on myself for a hot sec. Yes, my higher self knows I chose to manifest here to Expand and to bring Harmony and Healing to this planet because Harmony is my nature- the opposite of flawed. But my human self needs some reassurance- that there's nothing wrong with me for feeling depleted when for example, finding nutrient dense food from chemical-laiden land with depleted soils is hard to come by sometimes and reaching for the packaged, depleted food is easier. Human self, I'm here to remind you that you're perfectly doing your best in a beautifully twisted world. 5D Self, we here to bring the Harmony, and we've got this. Love you both. (I like this new thing, talking to my human self and my 5D self at the same time- feels fitting for my Gemini nature 😂🙌🏼) 🔮👽🌎 #beeasy #harmony #alien #planet #consciousness #healing #human #higherself #evolution #spiritual #awakening #expansion


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A glimpse into what Self Love looks like for me today. I'm finally allowing myself to indulge in the *pleasure* I know I deserve. I am removing all "shoulds" from this practice and tuning into what feels juicy and delicious for ME, which is unique, can't be defined in a book, and changes every single day. No more guilt around the "I should meditate, I should journal, I should exercise, etc." There is no right or wrong way to do this, and only You know what feels the best for You at any given moment! Lately, my body has been craving slow, sensual movement. Other times it wants to jump all over like a primal monkey. The fact that I get to choose my ritual based on how I feel is Soul-Reviving Sovereignty at its finest 🙌🏼 What does Self Love and Self Care look like to you? 🙏🏼🔮💓🦋✨🌸 🎶: @trevorhallmusic - Origami Crane

#selflove #selfcare #meditation #healing #indulge #unique #practice #sovereignty


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The Four Questions we are unconsciously asking each other all the time according to Maya Angelou:
1) Do you see me?
2) Do you care that I'm here?
3) Am I enough for you?
4) Can I tell that I'm special by the way you look at me?
It's amazing how the lack of presence can effect the way these unconscious questions are answered; for example...
•the love of your life walks into the room and you barely look up from your phone
•you're tying your daughters shoe and when you're done, you get up and reach for her packed lunch and hand it to her while simultaneously grabbing your bag and keys, all without ever looking at her
•You meet your best friend for brunch and go through the motions of the hug, the "you look so cute", and "it took forever to get here" without actually feeling much
•I am so guilty of this! I blaze through potentially meaningful moments every single day and realize by the end of the week how checked out I was. We all have done this before and it's okay
•When we look at people, are we actually *seeing them?* I can think of a few people who make me feel so incredibly seen and heard. And we can do this for other people too
•So this is a healthy reminder- just for today, to SLOW DOWN, and take a SECOND to *actually look at another person*. If you see someone, let them know that you see them! Connection isn't about quantity of time we spend with people- it is in the quality of a single moment. So, let's take a moment to slow down and take that extra second to connect... it could change someone's entire world. And it feels so much better for all parties, guaranteed.🙌🏼✨💓🔮🦋🙏🏼 #authentic #connection #questions #mayaangelou #presence #hereandnow
Source: https://www.thriveglobal.com/stories/16020-4-questions-we-unconsciously-ask-near-constantly

Haleakalā National Park
17

"When you've gotten to the point of deep release in which you don't even know why the hell you're crying anymore, you're exactly where you are meant to be- because you've officially moved *beyond the mind* and into the cells where deep blockages are being released."

Sometimes, I'm a hot mess and have no fucking idea why. I am often tempted to put a label on and quantify each of my emotional release experiences- like a notch in my spiritual belt- as if I have control over the level of progress I've made if only I can grasp and understand what everything stemmed from and why. 'Oh, I finally worked through that trauma from age 5.' 'Ah yes, that meltdown was related to letting go of the shame around my fathers uncles cousins lineage in my 46th past life.' That's nice and all, but perhaps we don't have to register it all cognitively for healing to occur. Maybe quite the opposite. Perhaps we can loosen our grip a bit and let the experience flow through without the analytics of the mind. Because what I've realized is when we've gotten to the point of deep release in which we don't even know why the hell we are crying, we've officially moved *beyond the mind* and into the cells and deep blockages are being released. To try and analyze the events that shaped the feelings that shaped the reality is to stunt and constrict and contort the experience of the evolution we so deeply crave. So this is a Note to Myself: Let it be messy and unknown. It doesn't need to make sense. It can just simply Be... and not in any cliche way. I can feel all the feelings and invite the mind to take a mini vacation as the somatic experience takes over. 🔮🦋✨🌿#release #the #mind #somatic #experience #beyond #feeling #healing #being #lightworker #spirituality

Makawao Forest Reserve
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The Silent Space-holder

“People who are hurting don't need Avoiders, Protectors, or Fixers. What we need is a patient, loving witness. People to sit quietly and hold space for us. People to stand in helpful vigil to our pain.” -Glennon Doyle Melton

Most of us have had an experience where we expressed our pain to someone (a healer, a therapist, a psychic, a friend, a lover…) and were left feeling invalidated, drained, stifled, disempowered, confused…

Because maybe, we weren't broken. Maybe we didn't need to be fixed. Maybe, we already had the answers and wisdom inside of us. Maybe, we were already whole. Maybe, we didn't want an epilogue from someone… we simply wanted to express ourselves and feel seen, heard, and validated. We wanted a person to say, "I hear you. I see you. I understand you...", or say nothing at all, and show us that with their eye contact and body language.

Because maybe, the paradigm is shifting.

We are TRULY remembering that all the answers lie within us (and not just reading that as a quote on Instagram) and we crave to be held with loving presence as we unlock that within ourselves.

It's so easy to want to share our advice, our insight, our experience, and solutions with others. But, we often take someones self expression as the green light to "bestow" our "wisdom" upon others when they didn't ask for us to "bestow" our "wisdom".

What's not always easy… is to Listen. To stay in our bodies, to remain present. To witness, to observe someone's deepest sorrow and pain with compassion, without needing to change it, pacify it, fix it, remove it. No matter how much we think we know the answers, what other's NEED… There is no greater healing force than that of unconditional presence for one another. No amount of advice, transcendental knowledge, or ethereal wisdom, can account for UNCONDITIONAL LOVING PRESENCE.

It is true that we can only meet someone else's pain to the degree in which we've met our own. That is what I've spent the last 5 years of my life doing. Meeting my Shadows. Getting to know my Pain. Going THERE with every ounce of Unconditional Presence for myself. My partner and I practice this with each other⬇️⬇️


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"At the end of the day, we are just scared little kids, walking around the planet, looking for the love we never received." - @balancedhuman

I dream of a planet where everyone remembers. Where wounded adults (aka grown up kids) stop teaching children (aka purest human strand of source energy) how to love and start learning from children how to love again. What if we could go back to the level of freedom and openness we felt the very millisecond before that first wound? The wound that caused us to close ourselves off a bit. The wound that began the process of forgetting. The essence of the inner child is love, the inner child already knows. We are remembering now. It's a beautiful time to be alive. 🙏🏼💓🌈✨🦋🔮#remembering #love #innerchild #wholeness #souceenergy #freedom #openness #healing #attunement #trueself #alignment #remembering


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Full Moon in Taurus ~ Massive changes underway!

We sang this song as a gift for @brianmassa_ 's Dad on his birthday yesterday. This is his Dad's favorite @johnmayer song, called "Badge and Gun". Singing jazz is my favorite/most comfortable for me, but this was a fun detour. And let me tell you, it felt SO good. What's crazy is that my voice seems to be coming back fuller sounding and stronger than EVER and it's clear that it is healing! It still fatigues relatively quickly, but I am on the mend and all of this vocal rehab and metaphysical work is truly facilitating this process. I am so grateful for all of YOU for sending me so much love during this time.

What I know is that I'll NEVER take my voice for granted again- speaking&singing with my whole deliberate heart. I will take care of my voice, honor her, listen to her, and love her unconditionally. I won't engage in activities that don't align with my Truth. Brian and I also have been let go of by many of our gigs due to not being able to sing very much if at all, and we are taking that as the green light to move in a new direction rather than falling into the disappointment of feeling like a this is loss. As much as we love gigging in fancy restaurants and hotels, it's clear where we are truly meant to be- getting ourselves out into the world in a bigger way. This is an opportunity to let go of the comfort of our steady income and leap once again into the unknown.

We've decided that we are going to spend most of our time writing new songs that align with our soul's mission & generating content on YouTube. His channel (Brian Massa) will be dedicated to our original songs/favorite covers & Vlogging our lives here on Maui. My channel (Meryl Yecies) will consist of inspirational content, my solo music, and guided meditations. We are very eager about this shift and the full moon in Taurus has helped us solidify this tentative plan. I am also super eager about my new inspiration with "The Silent Spaceholder" and have my first session tomorrow. 🙌🏼 Trusting change, trusting divine timing. How has the full moon in Taurus been treating you? 🌝🙏🏼✨🔮
•FULL VID w/ Guitar solo (and many more🎶) ON BRIANS CHANNEL💓

Haiku, Hawaii
67

Last night I had a dream I was holding compassionate, nonverbal space for a grieving woman. During my meditation today, a very interesting message entered into my mind and it WOULD. NOT. LEAVE. These words were "The Silent Spaceholder". A few weeks ago I joked in a post about how I "wanted a mute therapist".
Here's some more excerpts from that post:

"I've been to enough healers, counselors, therapists, who have overloaded me with insight&advice and for some reason I've come to a point where I am just done. No more words. I crave expressing myself to someone who can hold space for me with compassionate, loving eye contact, & some nonverbal cues to show acknowledgment. Unconditional listening and acceptance open all the portals within me to the knowledge I already have. I crave to be witnessed as I bring forth my own wisdom. I crave to hold space for people as they come into their own. Only a few times have mentors in my life spoken to me through pure presence and eye contact alone and it was the most powerful experience of all."

So, as I said, this idea would not leave. I started fighting with it, coming up with reasons why that would be ridiculous to actually act upon, cuz people would talk shit and ridicule me for actually trying this and "bla bla bla."

But, I remembered my post. And how many people messaged/commented that they crave the same. And if it's something I crave and something others crave than maybe I can trust that. And I allowed myself to embrace the idea, and tears began to flow. That's usually my heart's indicator that maybe, just maybe.. there's something to this.

So, I am open to offering Skype sessions, where I can be your Silent Space Holder. In a safe container where you can let it ALLLL go as I hold space and witness you with loving presence and unconditional acceptance. No words, (or extremely minimal depending on situation), pure eye contact, and perhaps I'll build upon this by offering some sort of written reflection for you after if you wish. This will be Donation based.

If this resonates or interests you, please message me. This feels really right in my soul and I'm just going to go with it. Sending love to you. 🦋🙏🏼💓


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When I first started my personal development journey, I kept a gratitude journal. I was super adamant about writing in it every morning, until it started to feel like a chore. As my philosophies changed, I gave myself permission to express gratitude in new ways that felt harmonious and I also slowly shifted away from certain aspects of my routine as I began to honor all of my facets, dark and light. A few days ago, I had a sudden inspiration to write gratitude in my journal like I used to, so I began flowing and it felt SOOOO good!... until, I reached a certain statement and felt a pang of resistance in me as I wrote it. My initial reaction was to try and override this feeling, because "it was something I "should" feel grateful for". The old me would've tried writing the statement 20 more times til I overrode the resistance and felt gratitude, cuz "there's no room for negativity here, damnit!" But my heart said otherwise- this was something I needed to gently explore. So I gave myself permission to free flow- mid gratitude session, and some not so fluffy, not so "positive" things began to stream out onto the page in relation to the resistant gratitude item. I chose non-judgment towards myself. My genuine feelings were coming out. I intuitively switched roles and became the compassionate, present observer as I witnessed myself pouring my feelings out and after about another page of this, my words began to shift. Clarity began to arise regarding this subject. And by the end, I felt truly, completely and utterly GRATEFUL! Like, that genuine, heart blasted open gratitude was pouring through me. Honoring my stream of thought process rather than stifling myself based upon what I "should" have done according to my mind ultimately lead to much more deeply profound feelings of resolution. The key was to become the compassionate, validating observer- almost like a dear friend to myself- as the authentic stream took place. When coming from this place of compassionate loving care for the Self, beautiful resolution is inevitable. 🌈🙌🏼💓🔮✨🙏🏼🦋#gratitude #authentic #expression #freeflow #morningpages #healing #compassion #observer

Haiku, Hawaii
9

Spiritual fuckery vent incoming⚡️

Pointing it inward. Just gota keep pointing it inward! It's all about ME ME ME! It's not about Them! They are me! So that thing I really don't enjoy about someone... it must be because of my daddy issues and all the unresolved pain from that time I was 3 and someone flicked my nostril the wrong way and I haven't released it so it has nothing to do with them oh it's all about me me me so I've gotta stay here and endure this shit so I can learn more about my unresolved issues because it's clearly not them it's Me, remember?! It's just All a mirror!
...
OR
Maybe I just don't like that. Do I have permission to dislike something without it being all about my shit? Can I remove myself from situations without it meaning I was avoiding?
..
Man just saying that last part is triggering me. Already I feel like if I take the latter perspective I am trying to get around seeing myself and I must be a bad spiritual person.
Oh, the joy of spiritual fuckery.
..
I just LOOOVE to point it inward and make it all about what's wrong with me. Can it ever actually be THEM? What gives?!
..
Clarity please, and thanks.


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It's even hard for ME to believe how much has shifted in me since I expressed my deepest sadness on that post a few days ago. I feel like a completely different WOMAN! It truly was a cathartic experience/ grieving that opened portals to new healing and empowerment. WOW! So, 2 days ago I attracted an opportunity to attend a sacred Women’s Womb Gathering hosted by the incredible @scarletcrowmusic, with 25 other women- in which we focused on
•vocal empowerment
•ancestral healing
•womb clearing
•breaking the silence
•etc…

A LOT came up for healing and transmutation during the gathering. Many tears, feeling so held by the entire group of POWERFUL Women, WOW. Words can’t express the experience in a post. Most importantly, it became very clear- I am here to give a voice to the voiceless. This is what my injury is here to teach me. I am currently experiencing the physical manifestation of that, and I am also here to transmute it. I cried so much in my meditation this morning because I had a vision come to me of me assisting women in workshops in finding their authentic voices- and just simply imagining these Women singing, shouting out, moved me so deeply. I am beginning to uncover a massive part of my life’s purpose.

I have also experienced many revelations as to how this injury manifested, which I will touch on in a future post because I am sure many Women/people/empaths in general can relate to these forms of suppression.

One of the biggest revelations that I had was how much I’ve suppressed my voice for other people’s COMFORTABILITY. Since I was a young child I have been a master people- reader- aka people-pleaser- and know EXACTLY how to calculate other people’s thoughts and predict their reactions so I can say the perfect thing to not create discomfort, dissonance, resistance, whatever. That to me was the ultimate death and rejection. First of all, thats fucking exhausting… to constantly be calculating and manipulating to keep the peace. I am giving myself permission to sit in the uncomfortability of it all. I am sending love to that part of my inner child that learned that was how to stay safe and be loved (ctd) ⬇️⬇️
📷: @alexisamorlunar 💓

Twin Falls Maui
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It's funny.. how the LAST thing I want to do when I am in physical or emotional pain is be with it. Staying in my body, mmmm yea- just bout the last thing I'd like to be doing in those moments. It's ironic to me that those are the moments when our inner child needs us the most. Here my inner child is, screaming out to me. Crying. Flailing her sweet little arms around pleading, "PLEASE LISTEN I NEED YOU NOW!" And what's my usual knee jerk reaction? To walk- errr, RUN the other way?! What's up? I'm out here trying to heal and shit and I still run? So- how can I gently rewire this impulse to escape myself when I need it the most? Practice. Patience. Courage. Self compassion. Bad-Ass-Ery. That's how. So that's my new intention. Befriend the pain. Hold it. Listen to it. Try to understand it. Spend time with it. Accept it. Invite it out for drinks. Climb in the hammock together. Sit on the floor together. Dance together. Pick flowers together. Watch a movie together. Run down my street naked together. Whatever I need to do. Ima do it. Our bodies and our hearts call out to us in this way when they need us the most. So here I am. Showing up. Because I fucking love myself and I deserve to show up for the one who inhabits my body. Let's get it.

PS I LOVE YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. BEYOND WORDS. 🙏🏼🌻💓🌿

#presence #selflove #acceptance #understanding #innerchild #healing #compassion #patience #badassery #spiritual

Haiku, Makawao, Hawaii
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I miss my voice. I miss the days when it didn't hurt to talk. I miss singing while doing the dishes and in the shower and at all other times of the day. I miss all the squeaky and squealy noises I used to make as my primary form of expression. I miss making videos. I tried to make a YouTube video I've been craving to make about Sovereignty and I had to stop after recording half of it cuz it hurt too much. I have so much I want to share with the healing power of my voice. I just want to share my gifts damnit. Talk about frustrating. I miss laughing without pain. I miss calling all my friends and family on the phone and talking for hours. I miss not being afraid to speak. I miss not having workers at our gigs come up to us and tell us they miss us singing cuz we only play guitar now. I miss spontaneous jam sessions and open mics where I could sing along endlessly. I miss singing to my favorite songs while I drive. I miss harmonizing with my baby. I hate how beautiful my voice still sounds despite the pain. It is pure torture. I miss the feeling like this was just the beginning of my singing career. I miss never having to contemplate if this is the end. I feel so fucking stifled. I feel damn silenced. I don't know how long this will last. I thought it would be healed by now. Expression is why I'm here. I wouldn't want to imagine living life without my voice. This nightmare is real. I feel depressed tonight. I didn't know sadness could go this deep. Just, ugh. 😩 This post isn't raising anyone's vibration and I will probably delete it. I Still love you all.


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Yesterday I witnessed an act of pure Embodiment from another Woman that moved me to instant tears. I attended an ecstatic dance that is held every Sunday here. I noticed a Woman walk in at the beginning, and felt a connection to/recognition of her, but didn’t think much of it at the time. During my dance, in which my eyes were closed for the majority of this one song, I opened my eyes to see that a man had come up to the woman and started dancing with her. And they seemed to be really vibin together! I closed my eyes for another minute, reopened them and at that EXACT moment, she put her hands in a prayer position in front of her heart deliberately, but with Love, letting him know that she was ready to going to go her separate ways. She let him go, just like that! For some reason, I began to INSTANTLY cry. Like, INSTANT. I went outside and I bawled in the grass as I compassionately witnessed every moment I had allowed my boundaries to be crossed flash through my mind. I held myself and held myself. This is exactly what I have been working on learning, and this woman TAUGHT me how to do it with love, grace, deliberateness and ease, just by being herself. No guilt, no anger. She went on her way, and he went on his way. It was really that simple. I had avoided men at events like these for this very reason- because I didn’t know how I was going to “escape” them. I didn’t want to have to shut them down, or didn’t know how to properly set a boundary, so I avoided them all together. This goes for a lot of scenarios I have avoided in my life, because I doubted my ability to cross the line when I felt it was time. This fear has held me back from experiencing so much intimacy in my life.

Another thing I want to mention is that I have been calling in sacred sisterhood connections, workshops, etc. Writing about it in my journal, affirming, envisioning it, etc. So I was able to catch this woman on her way out of the dance and express my gratitude to her. She accepted me with open arms and invited me to her Women Embodiment/Empowerment workshops that she hosts every Thursday, where they work on topics just like what I witnessed with the healthy boundary setting. YES! I had⬇️

Napili Bay Beach
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You're not alone. You're not alone. You're not alone. It's okay if you're in pain. It's okay if you're still grieving. It's okay if you are angry. It's okay if you feel numb. It's okay if you've cycled "backwards". It's okay if you lashed out. It's okay if you cry. It's okay if you want to be alone. It's okay if you want to be held. It's okay if you haven't done self care in a while. It's okay if you're not where you wanted to be. It's okay if you feel lost. It's okay if you've thought about leaving this place. It's okay to feel scared. It's okay to feel doubtful. It's okay to feel confused. It's okay to feel whatever you are feeling. You've done enough, and you have permission to simply be whatever it is that you Are. I am here to remind you that you are valid in your humanness and there's not a single thing wrong with you. Thank you for being real. You are seen and you are heard.

I am Now calling in all Angels and Guides and the Loving Higher Power of each individuals understanding to assist those who are asking for it at this time on their journey. I ask that you may support them and be with whoever is calling for you at this time, with the intention for the greatest and highest good of all beings. We so love and deeply appreciate you. Thank you. 🙏🏼✨🌈#youareloved #valid #angels #guides #higherpower #thankyou

Haiku, Hawaii
17

Last night I joked to Brian that I want to go see a mute therapist. But I wasn't really joking. I'm serious. I've been to enough healers, counselors, therapists, who have chewed my ear off (for lack of a more compassionate term, which I could attempt to insert instead but it doesn't feel authentic right now) with insight and knowledge and for some reason I've come to a point where I am just done. No more words. I just crave expressing myself to someone who can hold space for me with compassionate, loving eye contact, and head nods, and perhaps some hand to heart motions and maybe I'll be down with some loving "mmmmmm"'s here and there to show some acknowledgment. Unconditional listening and acceptance open all the portals within me to the knowledge I already have. I don't want an more advice. I don't want anymore insight. I just want to be witnessed as I bring forth my own. I don't want to give advice. I don't want to give insight. I just want to hold space for people as they come into their own. Can't we speak through telepathy already? Only a few times can I count the mentors in my life who spoke to me through pure presence and eye contact alone and it was the most powerful experience of all. I am open to reflecting more on exactly what part of me is being triggered, but I just feel the need to express this right now in hopes that someone can resonate.

When all else fails, at least there's still #trees.
🌲🌳🌴I want to take a moment to thank the universe for trees.. the OG listeners, the best space holders of all. 🙌🏼 #thankyoutrees #youdabest #spaceholder #listening #silence #presence #eyegaze #healing

Makawao, Hawaii
21

We were driving to Hana, a remote town in Maui. My sister @ale_amorlunar got an intuition to pull down this lush, yet deserted bumpy road- a clear detour from the destination I was so fixed on reaching before sunset. Dusk was already beginning to fall upon us. I reminded myself that I trust her intuition. This road lead us driving through very rough terrain, even crossing through a stream. After a half mile we saw a man waving us down. He alerted us that a part of the undercarriage of our car was dragging along the ground and he immediately crawled under our car and fixed it. Woah. Did we just manifest an earth angel with the perfect skills to fix our car? He introduced himself as Kai, short for a long Hawaiian name, then told us that there is a beach down the path to our right, and he was about to go catch his dinner if we'd like to come. My first reaction was "no", because I wanted to get to the affixed destination in my mind. I was filled with anxiety and asked Alexis if she trusted him. She smiled and said, "Yes. You can see the Truth by looking into their eyes". I realized I hadn't looked him in the eyes. I reminded myself to come back into my body and that we are meant to be here, now, and invited my analytical mind to let go as I exhaled. As I came back into my body, I realized, Yes, this does feel right. Kai lead us down the path to a lush open field. He chanted, "Mahalo Ke Akua", meaning "Thanks To God", using it as an offering for allowing us to enter the sacred land. I knew that he said this every time he entered sacred land. It's engrained in him. I was admiring the flowers and trees and then, the moment my eyes laid on the backside of Mount Haleakala and the sacred structure standing in front of us which was built by an ancient Hawaiian civilization (the Pi'ilani's), I was immediately overtaken as I involuntarily fell to my knees and began to bawl. I had never experienced something like this. I went from being slightly agitated in my internal world to completely overwhelmed and embraced by spirit without a single warning. I experienced a deep remembrance of something. Somehow I had been here before. I cried and cried and cried, as the voices of ⬇️⬇️

Hana, Hawaii
15

Authenticity- a very high vibrational word. A state of being that I aspire to reside in as often as possible. I believe that many of us do. The word itself seems simple enough- all I have to do is be fully myself right? Well yes, key word- FULLY. That means, in all of my entirety. That means I must be WILLING to look at and reclaim EVERY aspect of me that has been pushed into the SHADOWS. I can’t be fully Authentic if there are fragments of myself that I am not willing to look at and accept. To be thriving in our Authenticity is our BIRTHRIGHT. To dive into and reclaim the aspects of ourselves that have been pushed away for a long time- that is true COURAGE. Even the act of being willing to take a look- is integrity in action.

What happens to us when we are out of Alignment with our Authenticity?

Well, it sure doesn’t feel good… Our lives don’t seem to “flow” as easily. We get sick. Our bodies break down. If the misalignment has been chronic, we manifest chronic illnesses. If the lack of integrity is URGENT, we manifest acute illnesses and injuries.

Our bodies are our divine indicators.

In order to tap into their divine wisdom, we must be willing to FEEL, and we must be willing to LISTEN. And booooooy does my body have a lot to say when I finally slow down and listen (for example the memory that came through during my meditation the other day of me as a two year old, my mom feeding me baby food and hating the flavor (carrot), screaming and crying as she had the phone on her ear while forcing the spoon into my mouth, and me feeling so incredibly frustrated that she wasn’t understanding me/ feeling like she wasn’t present/ didn’t care. Yeah. Stuff like that. You can’t make this shit up!)

This vocal injury has revealed so much to me (as has every illness and injury since my awakening, but this one has been the most profound)- telling me where I have been out of integrity with myself and my expression for a long, long time. Where I have felt suppressed (refer to previous carrot food story, lol)… Where I pushed vital parts of myself into the shadow a long time ago due to the shame that manifested in the wake of childhood events. I am reclaiming. it. all.⬇️

Haiku, Hawaii
21

It wasn't until Maui that an interesting wound from my past starting appearing. It was the unresolved wound of the middle school Meryl that experienced the feelings of loneliness/rejection from being the "new girl" in 7th grade (from a large, diverse town to a small, "privileged" town). I came home crying every. single. day. asking my Mom why she did this to us. This middle school Meryl desperately wanted to fit in with the popular girls. This Meryl heard the rumors that were spoken behind her back b/c she was "different" and wore weird clothes w/o brand names. This Meryl didn't feel safe around girls because they were mean. They always seemed to be talking shit about someone and this is how I could get "in" with them. To be a shit talker too. It never felt good. This Meryl learned how to change herself completely, very quickly- in order to be liked. This Meryl forgot who she was. She became a master of chameleonship- and this skill inducted her into the "best" social groups throughout h/s and college. She mastered the "art" of winning at who she "should be" while losing herself. *There were a few very special, authentic friendships I made in HS/college that still remain today. LUV U sisters💓*

When I moved to Maui, I was back at ground zero. I knew no one besides Brian. I wanted to make girl friends so badly. It was almost like a desperate yearning. I was craving that sacred sisterhood and I was ready to finally be authentic. But every time I would be around girls, I'd start falling into middle school Meryl. I'd feel like they're judging me and gossiping about me. I'd get extremely uncomfortable and forget how to be me and judge myself incessantly. I longed to be part of their tribe but I didn't feel worthy. I felt like I needed to prove myself. I was anxious. I've never become friends with girls since middle school without playing some sort of role. Who am I now?

Yesterday, I met this sister in a tiny holy in the wall. When we locked eyes, I saw myself. She reminded me who I truly am simply with her loving gaze alone. I dropped the act and let myself melt into her arms as I cried and cried. I thought to myself, This. Is. Sacred. Sisterhood.⬇️

Haiku, Hawaii
24

Lessons on Receiving

I am a musician, performing at different venues around Maui with my beloved, Brian. We have noticed that when we finish a song, there is an uncomfortability that arises within us where we will unconsciously go to play with the knobs on our speaker, or adjust our microphone, or basically check out- as people are applauding. We'd also say thank you immediately as people began clapping, cutting them off. Here these audience members are, gifting us with their love after we finish a song, and we fidget our way out of being present for the experience of receiving it. Why? So, after we became aware of this tendency to check out, we decided to try a new thing, where as the audience began to applaud after a song, we would stand in our power with our hearts wide open, and actually take a step FORWARD rather than backwards and look everyone in the eye as we touched our hearts and visibly received their gift of appreciation. Then, when they FINISHED clapping we'd say thank you genuinely. I can’t even explain how UNCOMFORTABLE this was for me when we first began doing it. I wanted to look away. I wanted to fix the nonexistent wrinkle in my microphone wire. ANYTHING but sit and allow and receive. This exercise became easier and easier, and we noticed that the audience really loved it. They clapped longer and harder and even became more open towards us, facing their chairs to us, requesting more songs, I mean, this act of receiving changed our gigs around completely. This is something that I have wanted to tell many other performing artists about, as I notice that this is so very common. We even went to watch a friend perform recently and noticed that he didn’t leave space between songs, didn’t look up or acknowledge the audience... he just went straight into the next song after next song for over an hour and I kept wanting to applaud and connect and no space was given. I remember just feeling like I wanted to be seen by him and show him how much I appreciated him and I started getting frustrated- perhaps because of my newfound awareness on this topic- an interesting opportunity for me to reflect on regarding what was triggered within me.
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Maui
9

My sharings on here are my greatest teacher.

I used to think I needed to have mastered everything before I was allowed to share it. What I am learning is that I am the human who is receiving the insights through my vessel as I write them which makes it easier for me to internalize and apply them.

This platform is like my journal from my higher self to me.

That story was part of a bigger program that I am not “experienced enough” “not ready” “not qualified” to share my gifts.

I am still barely scraping the surface of being a master at any of this… Each day I wake up and am a humbled student all over again, amazed at how much I am still yet to learn.

The reason I am saying this is because yesterday, what I shared on here came in very handy to teach me a profound lesson last night.

I was on my break at a gig and I ran into a girl that I met a few weeks ago. She worked at the venue I was performing at but I met her elsewhere. I remember us having a deeply profound conversation when we met- but I COULDNT for the life of me remember WHERE i met her! I was drawing a complete blank and trying to play it off.

Finally, after feeling so much inner anxiety as I was trying to piece it together, I ashamedly asked her where we met. She told me, and I created a story that “now she now thinks I am some forgetful, unmindful, stupid bitch.” The self hate was fucking REAL! “Oh Meryl, you have such a terrible memory. It’s because you’re never fucking present. She probably felt your anxious, disgusting aura. You made her feel so unimportant. Way to go… etc. etc.” I mean, this chatter went on and on until it became almost debilitating and I could barely play my guitar. I finally a few hours later I broke down in tears to Brian about it.

That’s when the insight came to me. Yesterday I made a post about allowing myself to be HUMAN. As soon as I remembered what I had shared, I calmed down. I said to myself, “It’s okay to be human, Meryl. It’s okay to forget details sometimes. It’s okay to make mistakes. You did your best. How she perceived it is part of her journey. It’s okay to forgive yourself. Be easy.” Instant relief came. I am grateful for the insights that come ⬇️

Avon-by-the-Sea, New Jersey
6


Have you ever been set up by someone to disappoint them? You could just never get it right?

Have you ever set someone up to disappoint you? They could never be enough?

It's not fun, no matter which side we are on.

Perhaps some of us are on both sides.

I am releasing my tendency to project my unrealistic expectations onto others based upon my own unrealistic expectations of myself.

This has been a very painful pattern to live with because it inevitably sets others up to disappoint me.

I am aware that I became physiologically addicted to disappointment because of the unrealistic expectations that were put upon me as a child from parents, teachers and society.

They didn't know any better. We weren't like the photoshopped images on magazines. Space for our humanness to be allowed wasn't always deliberately created.

Becoming aware of this tendency is the first step in the direction of breaking karmic cycles that have been passed down for eons.

I am allowed to be human. So is everyone else. This includes healers, teachers, gurus, parents, children, doctors, criminals, lovers, and everyone else.

When I create space for the humanness in others, I feel incredible relief.

I can let go of control. I can let go of my fantasies and allow others to simply be who they are.

I can honor everyone's individual process of perfect unfoldment like a lotus flower, something in which I would never actually want to control.

What a relief.

Most importantly, I can honor my process.

I can be who I am.

Imperfections are an opinion withheld in the eye of the beholder. In the space where divinity meets humanity, I am perfect as I am in the image of the divine, and so it is. 🦋🌱✨#humanness #perfection #imperfection #expectations #suffering #disappointment #acceptance #divinity #spirituality #guru #consciousness #awakening

West Maui
6

I'll never forget the night
We deep dove into each other's soul's
We vowed to become sober together
So we could better reach our goals
We stayed up Til sunrise and I fell in love with all the words
I'd finally found someone who could grow with me
Activating our thirds

I was committed and I knew you were too
Months had gone by and I thought I knew you
One night I couldn't fall asleep in your bed
For some reason my thoughts were racing through my head
I came down the stairs and heard a door slam shut
You ran and locked yourself in the bathroom and I felt a pang in my gut

Are you okay? I knocked with naïveté
You said you felt sick- that was the first lie you ever said to me
I waited outside for you to come out
And your eyes were glazed over, and your aura, a cloud
'He seems stoned', said the voice in my head
I dismissed it, I must be woozy from bed

I tried to play it cool, but my radar went haywire
I asked you if you'd used
And you said "no" as you began to perspire
My gut knew the truth- That that was lie #2
Eventually your act retired
This was the moment I wondered why I'd fallen for a liar

This was two days before I left for Maui
And I was crushed
I debated ending it there
Because my main priority is trust
I'd fallen in love with an idea, and not the imperfect human underneath
I stayed out here for a month while I processed my grief
Over the person you were supposed to be

When you came out, we were ready to start anew
I thought that was a one time event, and that'd be the last time I'd "catch" you
Unfortunately it wasn't, and I came to accept that this addiction was real
So I honored your process and stopped falling for the highlight reel

I joined a 12 step
So I could learn how to accept
We began diving into our shadows
And I realized I am also as addicted as it gets
Not to a substance, but to my impossible expectations of you
Which really are the same expectations I put on myself- something no human should have to go through

We are addicted because we feel ashamed
This is how we've best escaped and suppressed our pain
I learned how to soften my reactions
As I realized the most pure, scared child on the planet was the driver of your actions⬇️⬇️

Napili Bay Beach
22

"I could've never imagined this” I say… Then I remember- actually, I did imagine this- but it manifested into form beyond anything my imagination could comprehend. I am learning and perfecting how to master this art of creating my reality. It truly is an art form.

When i was about to move to Maui, people told me it was so expensive and hard to find a job. I synchronistically attracted an opportunity to live on a GORGEOUS farm for free and they fed us. They also had a car we could use. After that, Brian came out and we decided to do music together. People told us it would be impossible to start out making a living without us both getting side jobs. I ALMOST fell for it and applied for waitressing jobs- and then we were given a sign from the universe to hold off on that. Cut away the plan B. So I jumped all in. Within 2 weeks we were making a full living off of music alone, performing 7 nights a week at different venues. When it came time for us to rent the house of our dreams, we were told the market was so competitive and it would be nearly impossible to find exactly what we were looking for, especially as young musicians. We gave notice anyway before we even had a place to move into, because we knew we would attract the perfect one. Within a week we had the opportunity to Choose the home of our dreams from an assortment of multiple options.

After I healed myself of an “incurable disease” 5 years ago… anything people told me that was possible or realistic became completely irrelevant to me. Nothing could sway the vision in my minds eye or the feeling in my core. I became very familiar with the process of creating my reality while tuning out other’s doubts and fears- after realizing that I am not confined by my present physical “situation”, but actively manifesting my future through the vibration emitting from my core here and now. I began to experience as truth that the universe moves out of the way when we move forward. I became familiar with the “in-between” or “mystery” space, that space that exists when we take the leap before we have what we “need” (Resources, etc…). I became familiar with the process of holding my vision and letting go of the “how”. ⬇️⬇️

Haiku, Hawaii
25

Finally hearing my voice again a little bit! 🙌🏼it's been almost 3 months! 😱 Reminding myself to ease into it- pushed a little to hard the other night and felt a bit of digression. Reminded myself to honor and respect my body and her healing process! (Not easy but still learning). ✨Here is a fun little song seed that is sprouting that really gets my inner child jumpin around 🙃🤸🏻‍♀️🐒 🔹

Repost @brianmassa_・・・ 🛴🌱🎠🎨🌻🎾🏓👧🏻👦🏻🥁🐿️🥋🏸🎡🌱🛴
I'm going back to my roots, back to the first grade
Don't care about no money, don't care about no pay
I just wanna have fun! Fun all day :)
Back to my roots back to the first grade
Ahhhhhhhhh auh

West Maui
19

"I was neurotic for years. I was anxious and depressed and selfish. Everyone kept telling me to change. I resented them and I agreed with them, and I wanted to change, but simply couldn't, no matter how hard I tried. Then one day someone said to me, Don't change. I love you just as you are. Those words were music to my ears: Don't change, Don't change. Don't change . . . I love you as you are. I relaxed. I came alive. And suddenly I changed!"
-Anthony De Mello

Thank you @balancedhuman 🦋💓🙏🏼 #acceptance #change #unconditional #love

Napili, Hawaii
10

How to Heal your Throat Chakra🔹
-Avoid vocations that are not aligned with your soul- stay away from working sales jobs that involve selling products that you are not passionate about- speaking all day about something you're not aligned with is detrimental to the throat chakra and self integrity
-Speak up when you feel any discomfort in your body around lovers or close family and friends. Your body is telling you something and to suppress it stifles self integrity and the throat chakra
-*VERY IMPORTANT*- Sing along with songs that resonate with you lyrically ONLY. Music casts powerful spells and to sing along to disresonant or disempowering lyrics is very detrimental to throat chakra
-Speak and Live Your Truth, Now. Its calling you for a reason. The longer it's held in, the more damaging it becomes to the body.
-Stop manipulating others for love and ask for it directly. Do not complain as a way to seek attention and love. Be honest and say, I really need some attention right now, can you please listen to me? Be direct and deliberate with your word.
-Clean up your language style and strive to use high vibrational words. Stay away from using disempowering, low vibrational words like need, try, should, can't, etc.. replace them with deserve, desire, could, can, will, etc.
-Be honest. Make amends. Lying is very detrimental to the throat chakra. Make amends in areas of your life that you've lied, cheated, stolen. Dig yourself out of old holes. Come clean.
-Eat Alkaline, Hydrate, Sleep, Meditate on blue light
-Work with blue crystals such as torquoise, lapis, larimar, etc.
-Release codependency and finding your self worth through others validation/ let go of trying to control others. Focus on your own self integrity and let go of controlling others and allowing them to control you. Send love.
-Explore and Find YOUR authentic voice. Sing in the shower. Speak your truth into voice memos. Speak from deep in your belly and root rather than from your chest. Let it vibrate your being. Let go of how it "should" sound and what it should say and slide into Knowing.
🔹More to come! ✨🔮🙌🏼🦋🌱
#throatchakra #healing #speakyourtruth #findyourvoice #integrity #releaseblocks

West Maui
34

"I am willing to release this". 🔹

We are not always going to be consciously aware of the root cause of blockages that are keeping us sick or stuck. And we don't have to be. To affirm that we are willing to release it, is enough for the process to start working. So, each time I was triggered this week in regards to a current stifling situation I am in (vocal injury), I affirmed this to myself. Sometimes dozens of times in an hour. And something miraculous started happening. I attracted spontaneous healing interactions in completely unexpected places, was guided by POWERFULLY insightful dreams, and I was able to feel and heal through many God-sent situations. Clarity was given to me almost without my trying. My genuine repeated affirmation and willingness to follow through was enough to kickstart the process. For the first time since this stifling situation began, I feel ACTUAL relief in my physical body. My vocal cords feel much less tight. I sang a little yesterday. And it was in a completely new way. From a deeper place. My voice went from being a wispy breeze to a resonating powerhouse that vibrated my whole being. I sang from deep in my sacral and root chakra rather than from up in my chest/heart for the first time. It cleansed me. That's the new place I am being asked to express from in all areas of my life. I am amazed at how much this is affirming to me that every injury and ailment is based upon the metaphysical. I feel more clear than ever on what metaphysical causes have lead to this predicament. I am eager to continue diving into this work and releasing the blockages that hold me back from speaking, singing, expressing, my authentic voice. If you are willing and ready to release, the universe will deliver opportunities at your door step to do so. The next step is to be aware enough to see the opportunities being offered and courageous enough to dive in. So I invite you to simply begin with this affirmation, "I am willing to release this"... and see where it takes you 🦋🌱🕊️✨#release #lettinggo #affirmation #louisehay #metaphysical #healing #consciousness #throatchakra #speakyourtruth #selfexpression

Iao Valley
12

When we aren't connecting to our inner light, cultivating the power that resides within us which is the same light as the sun and of Source energy, we will attempt to take it from somewhere- externally. This will happen no matter how pure and good of a person we are. Most commonly of all we will try to get the light from other people. We will become anyone and anything but ourselves to get it. Even the innocent can manipulate to try and get the light. It's our cry for love. Its naïveté at its best- that we've truly forgotten its right here, inside of us. It's why I would people please. But Now, This is the New Earth. We are awakening to our own light. The manipulation games are over. We are stepping out of naiveté and back into our knowing. We are stepping out of the programs that have wanted us to search outside. We weren't taught everything was within us already. This knowing would make us unmanipulatable by those in power. The complexity of grasping for light no longer makes sense. It's much more simple than that. Any grasping for light out there will only be grasping emptiness because the light can only truly be accessed from within, within, within. We can't get the light from someone else, just as No one can take your light. Meditate. Ground. Cultivate. Breathe. We must cultivate our own light now. It is time. We must embody our Truth now. This is for the greatest good of all beings and the planet. This is so you and I can give from a full cup. I love my light. I love witnessing you loving your light. Thank you. 💫💓🦋✨🙏🏼🔮#cultivate #lightworker#lightbeing #inward #journey #energy #newearth #heavenonearth

Olowalu, Hawaii
7