@laurenjauregui ; 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮
this is an old cover from an year ago ?!! and most of you have seen it but i’m reposting it since it’s the only cover where i am not smiling awkwardly & showing my face in lmao. excuse the fact that i’ve tied my hair and i look ugly lmao because it was in the morning back then and since i wanna talk shout something. i feel sometimes way too pressurised to post a cover but other times so motivated because of a random someone just complimenting me. i depend on someone’s validation & that honestly sucks and shows that i don’t really feel confident in the only one thing i am passionate about. there were goals that i didn’t reach as i abandoned them halfway, because they lost meaning to me. but i feel you still keep finding ways to stay motivated and i think getting attention & validation from someone helps but it’s lowkey bad cause it just makes you ask everyone every time. sometimes people like me put a tremendous amount of time and energy is invested in attempting to weigh how others see you. i am trying to get out of this and be better and proud of what i do and what i put out. motivation comes from different sorts of sources but it’s truly the best one when it comes from within. i don’t know what the fuck and why the fuck i wrote all do this i don’t even know if i talked about my flaws or my concerns & consciousness or just probably vented out but whatever this is i hope you relate and you will know that you are not on the only one .