What. a. Freaking. day. -It started (and ended) with awful stomach cramps from the antibiotic I’m taking for this lingering sinus/ ear infection.
-Wes had a meltdown on our way out the door.
-Ian went down late for his nap since the day got delayed from said meltdown.
I prepped dinner, got our on-the-go lunch ready, whipped up some superfoods, printed the paperwork I needed, and when Ian woke up, we headed out into the wilderness….
…where I was met with stop and go traffic. 🚘 -We arrived late to our first stop- my workplace. The lunch that I imagined him eating happily while I worked… was dumped out of the pouch all over the floor, himself, and the stroller while I was turned for a minute 😳 (Apparently Ian doesn’t approve of Whole Foods’ Carrot Ginger soup). #hotmessmama over here forgot to pack toys for him to entertain himself with. He cried for the rest of the hour that I was there, and although all of the staff and patients were incredibly forgiving, I still felt mortified as we headed to our next venture. It was a disaster.
Ian was approaching his nap time but I’m under a time restriction to complete drug screening for a new position I’m taking on, so off we went. -I parked and strolled Ian clumsily down the stairs to the lab where we met a friendly receptionist who sweetly said, "I'm really sorry but we can't do the test while you have a small child with you." 😩
I felt anxiety climbing up the back of my neck- trying to grab control and paralyze me.
I admired at the wispy blonde hair blowing in the warm breeze in front of me. I felt thankful for him and his brother. For my husband diligently working at his job for our family. “It could be worse.”
-I am safe. I am breathing clean air. I am loved. -I wasn’t in the accident I was sitting in traffic for.
-I work with wonderful people.
-I got some cardio in as I pushed Ian up one of Providence’s ridiculous hills.
-I got home (I have a home!!) to a house that smelled amazing from my slow cooker meal that stewed all day.
And although I’m not doing cartwheels of joy and I look forward to that moment of putting my feet up and sighing relief for the end of the day,
I feel so incredibly grateful. ❤️