This is me a week ago; and I haven't been DOING much at all lately. (except growing).
This week we all came down with a cold at our place, and I held the internal mantra "stay in there baby, stay in there"!
We are still recovering and I can't wait for our house to be illness free.
Illness and physical limitations have pushed my mind into reflection.
Right now my physical yoga consists of bending down to pick up things my kids have left on the floor, but it prompts a question I heard from a teacher over a year ago. She said she has asked herself how she would practice yoga if she were no longer physically fit to do so. If she lost use of her body, what would her yoga look like?
I've been thinking about this as my physical state and capacity has completely changed and I make choices to respect my personal needs rather than push them.
To me I hope that I have set up around me enough of a deep basis for my choices that they perpetuate on their own.
Choosing LOVE, TRUTH and HONESTY and tracing a path that exists as a legacy for others... or even myself when parts of me die (or sleep momentarily). Spending time focusing on peace in my heart is something I believe in, whether it is done through asana or through meditation and a bed waters flow by even when my conscious mind doesn't overtly know to choose that way anymore. It becomes our way of being.
If you'd asked me what I felt I would get out of yoga when I started maintaining a daily practice about three years ago, spiritual depth and reflection would have been the last thing I would have mentioned. I didn't really want to invite the spirituality of a yoga practice, I just sought something that could keep me busy and somewhat fit.
But MINDFULNESS has been the biggest pay off of my yoga journey, and it's no longer the busyness or the fitness that I can say I appreciate about yoga at all. I'm especially thankful now for ways I have grown inwardly, because I know those things have become like the inner fruits that feed me at this time now where there is so much change.
#38down #2togo #shewriteshere