i‘m emotional confused, I wanna dance and scream because I had the opportunity to see my princess or better my role model but at the same time I wanna cry and get never out of my room because I will (probably) never get to see her again. that is so heartbreaking i swear to god. but let‘s focus on the important things, I SWEAR TO MY FRICKING LORD THAT (you won‘t believe) SHE IS EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN ON PICTURES OR VIDEOS. like HOW is this possible? the first thing I noticed was that her face is so tiny and cute, and omg her JAWLINEEEEEEE. idk how to describe but it was such an odd feeling to see her like in reality، because my view of her was like always... like she’s only on a poster, you understand? xd and now I could see her face in three-dimensional, I mean I could SEE HER REAL BEAUTY and I WAS FREAAAAKING OUT. everytime she laughed, I had this weird feeling in my belly, I guess it is called 'butterfly‘s in my stomach' (?) I LITERALLY AM IN LOVE WITH HER. just to be clear, I‘m a straight girl but if I‘d have the opportunity to marry her, I wouldn‘t hesitate for a second.
so after I cried my heart out during nbts, it was camila‘s turn during consequences. I promise, cross my heart, when I saw her crying like this I just wanted to run on the stage, engulf her in a hug and stay like this 4ever. (but it wasn‘t possible because these lovely girls around me loved me too much, so that they had to hug me all the time LIKE I COULDN‘T EVEN BREATHE dude!1!1!) but one thing I absolutely loved was the fact that she talked SO MUCH TO US it was way tooooo cute, like her voice is so soothing, I wish she could read goodnight stories and could post them on her channel, so I could always go to bed with her.
I don‘t want this text to be too long because I assume nobody will read it till here but idc. just in case you, camila, will read it (ik I dream way too much ) I just wanted to say that I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART and this concert was amazing and I‘m so grateful that I can call myself a camilizer, you make me so happy, girl TE AMO ^Lolo
B E R L I N - 18. 06. 2018
I couldn’t express everything I wanted to, but I‘ll continue in the next posts :)