I know it's the middle of the night. I should be in bed by now, but I can't sleep. Whenever I'm sad, I usually have a hard time just trying to shut my eyes. It's been a whole month since I've talked to my friends. I wanted to see if they would text me first and they never did. Nobody to this day checks up on me. I may not have the biggest heart, but my heart is something people can trust. I don't like letting people down and yet they let me down in return. All I wanted were people who cared, but nobody did. Nobody ever did. Now, I'm wide awake. I know I have to stop waiting, but I can't. This pain hurts so much. I just want it to end. If anyone even cares and someone texts me, then the pain can end, but if nobody does, then I will be gone. The person you knew won't be there. I will be a shell of my former self as most people would say. Anybody I once knew will be met with anger and hatred for leaving me to suffer. I can't blame everyone, but it doesn't mean they don't have a part in it. Everyone is involved and everyone should be ashamed.
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